Destroying A Fairytale

Chapter 31

Chapter 31

Family

-Shanela-

"Hindi na ako dumaan sa balcony ng kwarto mo..." he chuckled against my ear then he kissed the side of my head.

Napatingin ako sa balcony. I remember those nights. Inalala ko kung paano nagsimula ang lahat ng ito, kung paano kami humantong sa ganito. In a short span of time, I realize that many things can happen unexpectedly. Many things may turn out the way you never thought that may happen.

I turned to him, his eyes were focused on me. He slightly smiled at me.

"Paano mo nagawa 'yun?"

"Hmmm..." aniya at inalis ang tingin sa akin. "My father trained me to do those sorts of things. Naalala ko pa noon para matutunan kong pumasok sa bahay ng hindi sa pinto, in the middle of a snowy night, he locked me outside our house... he wants me to find a way... I was only twelve years old that time." may bahid na lungkot sa boses niya.

Hindi na ako nagsalita. He had a rough childhood and that made him the man he is right now. I unconsciously tighten my hug to him and rested my head on his shoulder. I heard him sighed.

"Bakit kailangang mangyari sa atin 'to?" I asked.

"I don't know..." he softly answered. "I don't think I can forgive the people who did this to us... dahil sa kanila kaya nangyari ito sa atin." ramdam ko ang poot sa boses niya.

I know that it shouldn't be like that. We must learn how to forgive even if it still hurts us. I want to say that to him... he knows that it's my principle too. Pero hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko nga alam sa sarili ko kung napatawad ko na ba siya sa mga ginawa niya sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko bang patawarin ang mga taong niloko ako... I know to myself that I can but why do I feel that it's really hard?

"Pero ang importante naman ay magkasama na tayo ngayon di ba? Na alam na natin 'yung totoo ngayon."

"Yeah," pabuntong hiningang sambit niya. "Ito pala ang dahilan kung bakit kahit minsan ay hindi ako pinakilala ni Denver sa'yo noon... that bastard did that intentionally. He's afraid that I'll steal you away from him." umismid siya.

"But you did.. " I whispered. Bumaling siya sa akin.

"Yes, that's because I want to take my revenge so bad. But... if I known you before, then I might steal you away from him too. Wala akong pakialam kung kaibigan ko pa siya o kahit na mahal mo pa siya."

"What about Emily? Did you fall for her too? Except for the fact that you thought... that she's your first love?" I asked. Nakagat ko ang ibabang parte ng labi ko ng mapagtanto ko ang tanong ko. "Uhm... huwag mo na lang sagutin..."

He remained silent. I wonder what happened between him and my best friend.

"I don't know..." sandali siyang tumahimik. "The moment I realized that I'm in love with you, I know that there's something wrong with the love I had for her. I see her as that little girl I loved when I was young... hinahanap ko sa kanya yung nakaraan ko. I don't know if I fall for her qualities at the present... I still doubt my love I had for her. And probably that's the reason why she didn't love me back... because she knows that I'm not really in love with her..."

"She's a strong independent woman..." mahinang sambit ko. "Mas matapang siya kesa sa akin. She knows what she wants... she's a good friend. Para ko na siyang kapatid. She's a good keeper of secrets too... she's good at hiding. Kaya siguro hindi niya sinabi sa akin ang tungkol sa'yo... o kahit ang tungkol kay Denver. Hindi ko rin iyon nahalata sa kanya."