Jiley-Our Realitionship Together

Thoughts

James POV:
Ever since I managed to get Riley to tell me that Shantel has left the studio and the team want me to replace her, thats all thats been on my mind. I walk over to the locker areas to a group of guyes.
'Yo James! Whats up man!'
'Hey guyes'
'Why so down?'
'I just got alot of things on my plate right now'
'Girl stuff?'
'Nope. Dance stuff actually'
'Oh'
I see Riley comming over to us.
'Hey guyes'
'Hey Riley'
'What you talking about?'
'Nothing much'
'Oh'
She looks at me.
'Hey you okay?'
'Yeah Im fine'
'Sure?'
'Yep'
The bell goes and we go to class. I cant concerntrate on anything. No matter what I do the whole dance stuff is in my mind. Why does dance have to be so complicated?
We finish for lunch. I stand by the lockers and hit my head of them. I sit on the floor and burry my head in my hands. I feel a hand on my shoulder.
'You okay?'
'Not really'
She looks at me.
'Its just all this stuff to do with dance is driving me mad. I cant focus on anything today'
She stays silent.
'This is the hardest decision ever'
She places a hand on my arm.
'You dont have to do it. If you want to be with the band then go for it. Im sure theyll understand'
'But Im their last shot to get to internationals'
'Think of it like this. What does your heart want?'
'Both. I want dance and band'
'Then you can do both'
'I dont know'
I look at her.
'You dont need to worry about me. Ill figure something out'
'Im not too sure'
'Please Ri. Just leave me worry about this'
She smiles at me as I stand up and help her up. She hugs me and kisses me.
'I love you'
'I love you too'
We go outside to eat lunch.
I look at Riley.
'Your amazing Ri'
She puts her head down. I smile.
'So what do you wanna do after school?' she asks.
'Well I have band practice but you can come and join us if you want'
She smiles.
'Cool!'

We finish school and head over to the studio for band practice. The rest of the guyes arent here yet so I sit at the drum kit and start to play. As I play I look at Riley who seems a little distracted. I know shes thinking about the open spot on A troup. Honestly, she just needs to relax and leave me choose. I stop and look at her.
'Riley. I know what your thinking about'
She looks at me.
'What?'
'Your thinking about A troup'
'Why wouldnt I be? Im part of it'
'Come on Ri. You know what I mean'
She sighs.
'I just dont know anymore'
'About what?'
'About all this. I mean you gave up your spot on A troup cause you didnt want it, and now the whole team is pressurising you to come back. Its just so unfair and so messed up'
I can understand where Riley is comming from but she needs to leave me decide this on my own.
'Riley. Dont be worring about it. Its my problem and Ill fix it. You just need to focus on A troup and been their for the team. They need you for internationals. And if your worring about me, then you wont be focused on dance'
She looks at me.
'Are you going to be okay?'
'Ill be fine'
I get up and walk over to her giving her a hug. I really dont know how Im going to decide between band and dance. I love to do both but is that even realistic?
I smile at her.
'I should probally go' she says with her head down.
'Really?'
'Yeah. Ive a few things to do'
'Well maby we can meet later?'
'Yeah'
She walks off.
'I love you'
She smiles.
'I love you too'
She leaves the room. I sit on the bench and replay everything through my mind. How I gave up my spot on A troup just to spend more time with Riley and the band. How she auditioned and took my place and how Shantell left leaving another spot open that everyone wants me to fill. Internationals is an opportunity of a life time, and the band is just so fun. How can I choose between them.
I need to decide soon cause time is running out.