Malum One Shots [COMPLETED]

《 Goner 》

I try not to make super sad one shots all the time but idk it just happens. This might be triggering to some people so please don't read if it is.

I love you so so so so much❤

Also this is just a short one bc I wanted to post something and the others im working on are pretty long and wont be done til like idk lol.

Enjoy my loves

[Also this is based off the song Goner by Twenty One Pilots]

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Im a goner, somebody catch my breath

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I sat in the bathroom crying and tugging at my hair. Why can't anything just be right for once? Calum won't talk to me, my mom hates me, Luke and Ashton want nothing to do with me because im a disappointment to everyone. I can't do anything right. I hate myself right now.

Calum is downstairs.

I could just end it all right now if I wanted to.

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I wanna be known, by you

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Im lost. I don't even know what im doing with my life anymore. Calum was my escape. He's always so happy, so free.

He would cheer me up when I feel like this, he was always the one to tell me that I'll be okay. I just wanna hold him. I want to hug the life out of him by I can't.

I look over at a bottle of sleeping pills on the sink and grab them. I opened the lid and poured almost the whole bottle of pills into my hand.

Am I really doing this?

Without any hesitation I put all of them in my mouth and swallowed each and every one.

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Dont let me be gone

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Its been at least 5 minutes and I feel dizzy. I shouldn't of done it. I should of just apologized to Calum. Why did I do this?

He's just downstairs, maybe If I yell.
"C-Cal-Calum" I croak. "Calum!" I tried to yell louder but my throat was so dry.

"Cal!" It hurt. It hurt so fucking bad and I wanted it to stop.

The door swung open revealing a Calum in one of my flannels and his eyes were red, probably from crying.

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Don't let me be gone

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"M-mikey, oh my God, Michael" he rushed to me and looked over at the empty pill bottle next to me.

"I s-swallowed th-them" I whispered. "Im so s-sorry baby" I sobbed, my breathing was getting slower by the minute.

He pulled me to the bathtub and stuck his fingers down my throat. I threw up don of the pills while still crying. Everything hurt.

"C'mon Mikey please" Calum cried.

Once I was done I sat against the wall still crying. My hands gripped the rug beneath me and my eyes were burning from all the tears. Calum sat in front of me crying. "M-Mikey?" He whispered and grabbed my shaking hand.

"Why did you do it? Was it me? Did I make you do it? " he whimpered. I looked at him and sighed.

"Im a fucking waste of space Calum" I whispered look in into his brown eyes. My head was still dizzy and my voice was rough but I didnt care.

"Mikey you're not a waste of space" he said and leaned over to hug me. "I love you so so much" he started to cry more.

"I hate that you feel this way" he cried into my chest and I just there, rubbing his back while I was still crying also.

Finally he looked up at me and kissed my lips softly. "Im so sorry Mikey" I cupped his face and leaned my forehead on his. "Baby, it's not your fault okay?"

He nodded but more tears fell from his face. "I just want you to be happy" He said. "I love you"

"I love you too Cal, you make me so happy"

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Okay im still working on some other oneshots so stay tuned xx

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