Rpw : Fanservices Book 2

Fanservice 343.

KI EL'S FANSERVICE

[ FS: Suicide Act]

"Fuck! Goddamn it! Tell me, sino ba yung kasama mo kagabi Kiel!" I shouted at him angrily.

"Will you please calm down Mia?! Kapatid ko kasama ko kagabi okay! Stop doubting me!" He shouted back and messed his hair irritatedly. His eyes were full of irritation.

Naiiyak naman akong napaupo sa sofa. Napayuko ako at tinakip ang mga kamay sa mukha. Fuck, bakit sya nagsisinungaling sakin? Ayaw naba nya sakin? Hindi na ba nya ako mahal?

"Fuck! Stop crying will you?!" He went to the room and slammed the door.

I cried harder for what he did. He changed a lot. The Kiel that I love is not like this. He was.. caring and sweet. Not like this man now, cold and distant.

Why did I do wrong for him to treat me this way? I mean, I am giving him all the attention and love that I can give. Why is he still acting like this to me? It hurts.

Nakarinig ako ng kalabog sa kwarto, I wiped my tears and hurriedly went to the room. I saw him packing his things. My heart constrict with pain the moment I saw how determined he was on leaving me.

"K-Kiel what are you doing?" Lapit ko at kinuha ang mga damit na ilalagay nya na sana sa maleta nya.

"A-are you gonna leave me too?" My voice cracked. I gripped his arm. "Ikaw nalang ang meron ako Kiel, pati ba naman ikaw iiwan mo rin ako?" I sobbed

He sighed then turned to me. "I'm not leaving you Mia, I just need time to think. Nasasakal na kasi ako eh, you've changed a lot. Malayong malayo kana sa Mia na minahal ko. I.. I need space." He pulled his arm from my gripped.

I was stunned. It was late when I realized that he already passed through the door and left. Leaving me all alone in this big house.

Napaupo ako sa sahig at umiyak ng umiyak. Fuck this life, si Kiel nalang ang meron ako but he still chose to leave me.

My parents abandoned me when I was still an infant, I was left with my auntie who did not even cared for me a bit, I was often beaten and molested by his good for nothing husband, then I met Kiel. Then I felt happy, I experienced the happiness that I've been wishing for since time immemorial, and the love which I was lack off. But then, he's gone now.

Hindi ko ba deserve na mahalin? Hindi ko ba deserve na maging masaya? Kasing tangina! Kung deserve ko bakit ang sakit sakit na? Lahat nalang ng minamahal ko iniiwan lang ako.

With my strength left, I stood up and reached for the scissor on the drawer. My hands were shaking as I was pointing it's sharp edge on my wrist.

This is it..

I closed my eyes tightly, tears are like waterfalls flowing non stop on my cheeks. I took a deep breath then with the little courage that I have left... I cut my wrist.

I can feel the hot blood flowing out but I'm to numb to feel anything, I pushed the scissor deeper and deeper, then I succumb to oblivion.