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Part 62

Shawn:

2 weeks later

*dream* 

I walked in the apartment. It was silent but I heard crying that I only recognized as Maya. It sounded as if it was coming from our bedroom. 

Why is she crying?

I jogged up the stairs and opened the door to our bedroom, seeing her in bed.  I walked over to her and crouched down in front of her. "Hey" I whispered. "Why are you crying?" I asked and she rolled over, her back facing me now. 

"It's nothing" She said and I placed my hand on her back. She tensed up a bit but relaxed under my touch immediately after. "Maya." I whispered. "Why do you only want to be friends?" She whispered and cried again. "Why do you still want to cause me so much pain? Don't you know how much I love you?" She asked and I closed my eyes.

I stood up and climbed in under the covers behind her. "Maya please look at me." I whispered and she rolled over to her side, looking directly into my eyes and not breaking the contact whatsoever. Her eyes were bloodshot red.

Out of pure nature and my love and care for her, I reached out my hand and wiped away her tears.

"I still care about you, even though we're not together anymore, I still love you so much Maya." I said and she let tears fall down her cheek once again as she closed her eyes and clamped her hand over her mouth to silent her sobs.

"Can you please stay here?" She asked and I nodded pulling her closer to me as I wrapped my arms around her waist. Holding her in my arms, so close to me, never felt as good as it does now. I was stupid for letting her go and I know now how much I've hurt her. 

I miss her.

I miss us.

"Shawn." She whispered. "Maya. please. Before you say anything can I just say something?" I asked and she nodded, her eyes still locked on mine as I looked at her. Hurt now taking over my own heart. 

I hesitated at first, but pushed myself to lean forward and kiss her. My lips linking in with hers like a puzzle. She's my missing piece. When I kiss her I knew we were meant to be. Nothing can break this, but yet, I did.

"I love you. Please don't leave me. I'm so sorry I left you and hurt you, and that we argued so much. I was just tense and nervous about the tour and everything. Leaving you was my biggest mistake of my life Maya... please stay with me." I begged, apologizing for all things I've done wrong. She smiled.

"I will. I love you Shawn and I forgive you.But you have to do something for me." She said, cupping my cheek and softly caressing it with the pad of her thumb. "Yes, of course. Anything. What is it?" She kissed me before she smiled and spoke up.

"Wake up. Please. Wake up for me Shawn, so we can be together forever. I want to be with you the rest of my life, but I need you to wake up." She said and I was so confused. 

The the entire crash replayed in my head. The picture of how I couldn't see what's in front of me because I was crying to much. The truck crashing into my side as I probably drove over the red light and rolled me down the road, sending me through the windshield once the care came to a sudden stop.

The sirens of the ambulance and other cars surrounding me. Just as someone grabbed onto my arm I passed out.

I haven't awake since.

*end dream*

My heart was pounding in my chest. The sound of my heart monitor blasting in my ears as my heartbeat keeps on raising.

"Shawn. Shawn what's going on?" Maya sounded panicked beside me. "Nurse!" She yelled and I heard sets of footsteps running into my room. "What's going on?" Maya asked again. "It's panic. He must be having a bad dream or it's still the shock and impact of the crash that's on his body. Don't worry. He is okay it's just shock." The nurse said, comforting Maya.

I heard her crying loudly. She's afraid of something happening to me. 

Don't worry my love. 

I need to wake up. I can't lose her like this. 

I love you Maya. I'm waking up.