AUTHORS NOTE THIS CHAPTER WILL HAVE SELF HARM IN IT SO IF THAT TRIGGERS ANYONE I AM SORRY BUT I HAD TO WARN YOU GUYS NOTE OVER I was hanging out with emilio in my room watching Netflix on my queen size bed when Jake screamed JESSICA THEY ARE 10 minutes away Jess OKAY JAKE THANK YOU Emilio: are you gonna go hide Jess: yeah I have to get my vlog camera first Emilio: oh okay I jumped up and turned off my tv then ran to my purse where my vlog camera was and grabbed it. I walked back over to the bed and turned the light on then updated the vlog VLOG•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• HI guys I am back to update here with Emilio Martinez and he is gonna help me with my prank. So is Jake they will both be just vlogging then follow Ivan up to the ratchet room, and then I will jump out of the closet. Emilio is gonna be vlogging upstairs and Jake will be downstairs so let's see how this goes. I ran into the closet and hid. jesters Ivan and Tessa and Erika will be here in like 5 minutes. TIME SKIP THEY ARE HERE. I whispered okay everyone they just pulled into the driveway and I know you can't see me cause the lights are off. Ivan: Jake I'm home he said that sadly Erika: HI JAKE PAULERS WHATS GUCCI Tessa: I'm gonna go upstairs come Erika Ivan: I'm just gonna go to bed Jake okay I'm gonna come up and vlog I have no content Ivan: whatever Jake I heard everyone coming up the stairs jake and Ivan first then I heard them enter the room and sit down then I jumped out HEY STRANGER Ivan: HOLY FUCK JESS YOU ARE BACK he jumped up and i koala hugged him but this one
didn't let go. Okay so that is the vlog like and subscribe and join the jester family! BYE GUYS! ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• I did my whole outro from Ivan's back Jess: Ivan can you put me down so I can turn the go pros off please Ivan: sure He let me go and I turned them all off then took everything to my room. I ran to Tessa and Erika and gave them a huge group hug Tessa: YAY MORE GIRLS Erika: yeah I am so happy you joined but I think Ivan was happier Jess: yeah I think so too I walked away and back to Ivan Ivan: how long are you staying Jess: forever Ivan: WHAT NO WAY Jess: seriously Ivan: I am so happy I love you Jess Jess: by the way I told the vlog we were just bestfriend I didn't know if we were out yet or not Ivan: that's okay and we aren't but we can tell fans whenever you want too Jess: Okay how about next week Ivan: perfect he wrapped his hands around the small of my back and I put mine around his neck and we leaned in and kissed it felt like forever but it was only like thirty seconds Ivan: wow so umm how is your neck Jess: terrible I hate you I said lightly punching his chest Ivan: I hate you more Jess: I'm kidding I love you most Ivan: impossible Jessica: possible Ivan rolled his eyes playfully Ivan: why do yo have a bruise on your face? Jess: I froze then said I hit it on the plane window Ivan: if you say so Jess: I say so I'm gonna go to my room to change to sleep. Ivan: Okay I stood up off of the ratchet room couch and walked into my room and changed into this
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I took the jacket off and threw it on my bed and walked down to the kitchen to get a glass of water and Ivan was sitting at the counter on his phone I walked up and sat down next to him and said hey babe Ivan: hey princess woah what are you Wearing Jess: shorts and a sports bra Ivan: oh no no only I am allowed to see that put on my hoodie Jess: no you aren't my mom Ivan: Jessica Ann put it on now Jess: ugh whatever I put his hoodie on then got my glass of water and was about to walk upstairs when he grabbed my wrist with a little bit of strength and I whimpered quietly because of my cuts that are two days old and because of the bruises all over my arms and stomach and back and legs Ivan: why did you whimper Jess: no reason you just scared me Ivan: stop lying Jessica Jess: I'm not lying He then went to pull up my sleeve and I yelled there is no reason Okay then ran upstairs leaving him there in shock that I yelled and ran. I got up to my room and shut and locked the door and slid down it crying to myself cause I snapped at him. I heard Jake yell down to Ivan Jake: what the hell happened Ivan: I don't know bro he sounded like he was almost crying Jake: well get your ass up here and fix it Ivan: o okay I heard light footsteps then slowly walking up the steps the light knocks on my door Ivan: Jess I don't know what I did but I'm sorry will you please let me in I love you I stayed silent other than my sobs I wanted so badly to let him in but I knew I could not let him in but I managed to say I'm so-s-sorry I felt him slide down the door I stood up grabbed my blades from my suitcase and walked into the bathroom put my left wrist over the sink and then put the cold blade on my skin I said out loud 1 for love 3 for my asshole dad 2 for Ivan 2 for team 10 1 for la 1 for stupid feelings I hurried up and put gauze around my fresh cuts and put on a thick cardigan and a pair of adidas pants on over my Nikepros then cleaned up all the blood in the sink and hid my blades in a drawer and unlocked the door then ran over to my bed and sat down about five minutes later Ivan realized it was unlocked and opened it and ran over to me and pulled me into a hug and I hugged back with my arm that wasn't cut Ivan: Jesus Christ Jess you scared the shit out of me I thought I hurt you and you hated me I just replied with I don't We hugged for about an hour then he said show me everything I didn't want to but I knew he had to know. I slowly raised my sleeves and took off my adidas pants and his jaw dropped. I immediately started crying thinking that he would hate me now but he just pulled me into a hug. I managed to get out I-I'm s-s-sorry Ivan: shhhhh its okay princess Ivan: stop crying because you are okay I'm here now Ivan: can you please tell me who gave you these bruises I just froze but I have to tell him I lied about where my dad was. Jess: it it was my d ddad Ivan: but I thought he was on a business trip Jess: I lied Jess that day you FaceTimed me and I was crying was when I came home and he did this to me then I cut and that's why when you grabbed my arm I whimpered then I ran up and cut again. I was sitting on his lap with my legs wrapped around his back and his arms in the small of my back
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Jess: hey Ivan Ivan: yes babygirl Jess: can you sleep in here tonight Ivan: of course princess anything for you Jess: thank you you can go change if you want Ivan: Okay he just took off his shirt and I got under the blankets and so did he Ivan scooted over towards me so that we were spooning and he kissed the top of my head and we both fell asleep
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