Book Fairs and Insecurity

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Okai okai, i know i promised that this book to be a daily thing but school had to be a bitch and cram us with Projects, Assignments and quizzes. So i apologize for that

OKAI! 

So my school does this every year on a week on November since November is our English month. Like every month has a specific subject and yeah sutff like that. 
WE HAVE A BOOK FAIR AND I LOVE IT. Some book stalls sell frikin Yaoi and Yuri and i cant even also they sell notebooks and collectables like rubics cube and other stuff. 

Next is something that i dont like at all ! ! !, i avoid things like this at all cost which is insecurity. 
There was one post i shared that says "Comment a post that will piss me off, I dare you" and i shared that just for funsies since i was bored. Like always, my friends tried to piss me off with Luke Hemmings and Animu but one particular comment caught my eye. 

The comment says "How many times do you jog in a week?" and at first i was like, hahahahaha, im just gonna laugh that off but as soon as it sinked inside me. I felt a pang of depression. I hate it. it made me sad and not pissed. I know most people would brush it off but me i wont. well i tried but i couldnt. I'm fat, i'm like 66 pounds. My family also agrees with that. Sometimes, whenever we go to malls and i wanted to try some bottoms. It usually dosent fit me so i always buy sweaters, hoodies and jackets and sometimes i get scolded by my father since i always buy those things. I hate my body to be honest. I now dont eat that much or sometimes i skip meals. I know thats bad but my mom dosent want me to work out since she says, "You'll just go back to eating alot and it wont help at all". I just didnt ask anymore. Thats why everytime at school, I give my lunch away so i can reduce weight. I know stupid thing to do but i got some money and when im really hungry, i just buy food. 

NEED TO GET THAT OFF HOLY SHIT. 

Anywaysss
i guess thats alll 
I GOT ANOTHER CHAPTER TO WRITE AND YEAH 
Again, sorry for the late updates. I'll be back to regular updates next week since we have no classes the whole week 

SHIRO, OUT

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