Weeb's Diary

I shouldn't be doing this

2-27-18

i honestly shouldn't be writing this chapter 

but its been a long time and also 

im just breaking down on my bed and listening to slow and sad songs, i usually listen to loud and metal songs that would scream in your ears at full volume just to drown out the sounds around you but i feel different 

like wanting to just listen to sad songs would satisfy me and also aid my aching heart (aching physically and mentally, physically because i dunno but its legit tho). 

i feel so ashamed and embarrassed to the point im willing to isolate myself if it means i won't have to face him. I am so ashamed about bitching out my problems and rant about it and its not like me to not be ashamed about bitching and ranting out my problems to my friends 

maybe its cuz i like him that i don't want him to think im just an all out bitch or that the fact i don't want any of my close friends or best friends to feel so disappointed about me and like i made them more distant from me

welp
imma just get through this by re-watching all ecchi anime that i have known and just cry until i either fall asleep or my laptop dies anyways 

SHIRO OUT  

also, i feel the song above ^^ 

also 

JUST MONIKA