Weeb's Diary

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4/14/19

if i remember correctly, I put this song in here already but for old time sake, im gonna put it there 

so anyways 

an eventful weekend, got to feel really fucking poor and rich in one day like holy fuck. 

also finally got to swim and get my thoughts out of my head and just de-stress. 

I dunno why im so paranoid nor like overthinking and over analyzing things even though- 

ahh jeez 

so like the reason why i put that song there is cuz well... IM JELLY AND PARANOID ABOUT GETTING HURT AGAIN 

i mean like, i dont wanna be controlling even like we aren't official but feelings change... and im scared...

what if im gone for like a week, or a month and when i came back, everything's gone to shit and my whole world just falls apart. 

gawd i hate it when im like this 

i mean cmon, i'm competing against his like ideal type, short, cute, lovable, adorable, petite, JUST VERY CUTE IN GENERAL that i can't compete with, i mean y'all 

have you seen me, high maintenance af, has temper issues, has a violent instinct, not lovable, like uughh fuck 

i just feel so down 

thats why alright 

im sorry 

well anyways 

im doing something for this book, a one shot so yyeahah 

welp thas all 

imma just brood and sulk about this issue until school comes 

Shiro out !