Weeb's Diary

IM BACK HOME !

5/19/18

ITS BEEN  WHILE MAH PEEPS 

first off, enjoy thy song from the vamps, currently my jam 

anyways !

IM BACK AND I'VE GOT SOME UPDATES

and this will be a long one 

okai okai so remember J ? 

wellllll let's just say something happen, like got friendzoned by Kuro 

and at the same time, J was there to comfort me which made the pain invisible 

but then my aunt had to recreate my childhood and be like mother 

THE MOTHER WHO ACCUSES ME OF BEING A SLUT AND FUCKING AROUND WITH A BUNCH OF GUYS 

That's like the one problem i have with my mother and aunt but for my father, it's all good CUZ HE UNDERSTANDS ME

anyways 

my aunt scolded me and like want to keep my good girl rep going since alot of people are speculating that we were together but we weren't at all and so as that happen 

me and J don't talk that much anymore and then we drifted to strangers which was FACKIN GREAT 

okai so let's go back to the part where Kuro friendzone me, after that day, i told him "I only like you as a friend" AND BITCH I LIED 

He was so happy that i told him that, his message was filled with like a gentle and soft demeanor and i don't want him to feel bad, if i tell him that i lied to him 

he will get mad at me and probably destroy our friendship and remember the last time that our friendship was in peril, I had one of the worst breakdowns ever. 

alright the next thing was i had my first ever panic attack when i was in vacation and like maybe an Anxiety attack as well but i'll just call it a panic attack so anyways remember "The god of war" ? the guy who was there when my grandfather died ? well he came back and wanted to fuck me and my friend WHICH MADE ME SO AFAID to the point that my breathing became heavy, i started shaking and pacing around, i couldn't stay still, i was uneasy, but as soon as my friend comforted me, i was finally calm again, i dont want that to happen again and thus don't want to be near him again. 

next thing is the harsh crushing reality that school is near and i have so much to prepare, like BUY A SOUTHSIDE SERPENT JACKET ! ! !

not to brag or anything, im just really happy since my aunt (the sister of my mother, the aunt that i talked about earlier is from my dad's side) she will give it to me as a bday gift and i can't wait to have it

well anyways 

that's all 

i'll talk about some other stuff in the next chappy 

SHIRO OUT