Weeb's Diary

Miss moving on ?

1/15/19

sorry if there's no song for today but there's nothing i could think of at the moment

but alright 

im moving on, finally letting kuro go and this ummm feelings (?)

part of me doesnt have feelings anymore but somehow i feel guilty

guilty that im hurting him, dunno why or dunno how or maybe 

he's just saying those things to me 

but 

ughhh 

the doubt is real also the hesitation of it all 

also snake's been fucking getting too close to him 

SEE WHAT I MEAN ABOUT CONFUSION ! 
I CARE ABOUT A 7TH GRADE GIRL CLINGING ONTO KURO EVEN THO I TELL MYSELF IM OVER HIM 

THIS IS WHY I HATE MYSELF AND WANT TO DRINK BLEACH 

anyways 

i guess that's all 

just a short ass update 

and i feel tears threatening to fall 

shit 

do i still like him ? 

but i dont feel anything when he does things to me, put his head on my shoulder, nothing 

get too close to me (maybe a bit)

hold my hand, nothing 

apologize for being a dick and actually try to change and be more nice (okai that's where i draw the line)

im hoping aria nor toni wont read this 

mostly aria 

cuz she'll slap me if she found out that i lied about my feelings 

toni would understand...hopefully.... i know her like that 

well anyways 

imma go and do shit 

shiro out