Weeb's Diary

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9/1/18

so it's September now AND COSPLAY MANIA IS NEAR HOLEH SHIT 

and also SEVENTEEN CONCERT but im not attending it huhuhuhuh

anyways 

i've been talking to this guy, who i treat like a little brother. let's call him Chad, cuz that's the name i have on my mind, i was gonna name him someone from Mobile Legends buttt naahh

okai so !

this guy, promised to help me, but well, i'm not that trusting anymore and stuff like that and it's bothering him, 

i feel bad but at the same time is hoping that he could understand my situation. 

im hoping he does because sure its a good thing that he's persistent on helping me but i don't want to trust him so easily yet 

i can't do it anymore, to trust someone wholeheartedly, after everything that has happened to me.

i just can't do it, no matter how hard i try, i just can't do it 

and now he's debating on wether to just wait for me to open up to him or just give up entirely 

giving up on me, isn't new at all, im ready, i'm used to alot of people giving up on me (cue the situation i had with metal head in the past and also yuri) so yah 

that's kind of all i guess,

letting it all out 

that's all i guess

SHIRO OUT !