Weeb's Diary

Soooo uuumm

11/10/18

"I've loved and I've lost But that's not what I see So, look what I got Look what you taught me And for that, I say

Thank you, next" -Thank you, next by Ariana Grande

so first off, its mah bestie's bday, Aria, and like well i couldn't do anything to make this year happy for her. I've been in a sorta awkward phase where like i feel empty all of a sudden. Having breakdowns for no reason, itss uugghh, i'm all over the place.

next is well, the song, cuz like i found this from FBE (yes, i watch that when im bored) and damnnnnnn. 

Well...im falling out of love for kuro... dare i say it. I'm completely serious and not joking at all. Its been like a while 2 years i think...

I swear, it'll come back the second he messages me or something but in all honesty. My heart can't take another hit from him. 

nor have the courage to like be close to him, crack jokes, maybe...we'll go back to strangers... UGHH FUCK 

i kent anymore....I need a break then suddenly i do go on a break and then he ups and makes another issue like last time WHICH WAS JUST A FUCKIN MISCOMMUNICATION. 

I'll take a break, i'll finally do it, he's giving it to me eh. I'LL TAKE DAT FUCKIN OPPORTUNITY THANK YOU VERY MUCH. 

OML 

also we just had our recollection yesterday and im really happy and remember that time where like half of my classmates ganged up on me and made me feel miserable. Well, there was one part of the recollection in where we had to sit infront and say sorry to everything that we've done to other people and i was the first one to go there since I needed to get something off my chest and once i did. They all stood up and hugged me one by one and also they apologized 

and i was feeling so happy and giddy after the recollection that I wanted to hug like my closest friends, kuro, Loend, Aria and Toni.

I hugged Loend cuz he waited for me so we can go home together and he also made me a letter which is nice. 

"Call me friend but keep me closer (Call me back) And I'll call you when the party's over " - When the party's over by Billie Eilish

fits kinda well with what im feeling as well 

well, imma go and be emo again 

SHIRO OUT