Weeb's Diary

Clusterfuck of stuff

6-9-18

Okai so first off, im getting too attached with the kpop band called "Seventeen" cuz bitch THEY ARE ALL CUTE AND HEAVENLY HOOOOO BOOIII 

I have three biases (is that even a word), if ya know Vernon, Jeonghan, and Jun, they're all my biases, my biaswrecker is WOOZI cuz woozi cute 

anyywayyss 

i've been having an issue with toni and im still not comfortable enough to tell Kuro my problems even though he promised to protect me via something imma talk about later on and that he would help me but still there's this feeling that i couldn't shake, is cuz im deeply in love with him ? or the fact THAT HE REMINDS ME OF A CERTAIN METALHEAD WHO ACTS JUST LIKE HIM but much more nice and less awkward. 

okai so the problem with toni is very complicated like it just popped outta nowhere and now she would get mad whenever i try and visit her, dear gawd, i'll leave her be for the mean time and then

 i realized that nothing lasts forever, no matter how much you've gone through with someone, no matter how long you've guys been together, it'll all be gone after one mistake or even a problem

and now well, i don't know anymore

anyways 

next thing im gonna tell you guys is that about the promise that kuro made with stalker boi (hopefully you remember him), he made a promise to protect me from god of war (also gotta remember him), i am grateful for what stalker boi did but it got me thinking, why would kuro agree to it ? 

i mean we aren't that even near being best friends, we're just close friends and that im close to him because i have huge ass crush on him 

and then me being the stupid ass bitch that i am thought kuro had moved on from meg, let's just call her by her name, i'm too lazy to think of codenames rn, i'll probably change it later on but anyways, meg -claps-

meg is like kuro's dream girl, HER BROTHER IS IN A BAND FFS AND THEY HAVE TWO SINGLES ALREADY OUT AND KURO EVEN HAS THEIR SECOND SINGLE ALBUM COVER AS HIS FREAKING WALLPAPER (gotta let it all out BECAUSE SOMEONE HAD TO BE DISTANT EH) and also she likes anime, she's short as hell (which kuro loves), pretty hair, petite structure and an amazing personality

i also know who she likes but SHE GOT HEARTBROKEN CUZ SHE SAW HER CRUSH POST A PIC OF HIM AND HIS GF TOGETHER and so my mind goes crazy mode and overthinks 

and that thought of them getting together is haunting me, i mean i'll be happy for them, of course i have to, if he's happy with her then im happy, even if it kills me everytime he talks about something related to her 

i don't know what to do with my life anymore

school is near and also KURO IS AGAIN CLASSMATES WITH HIS EX (-insert me in the background screaming like hell-), it's 3 year streak and there's also a possibility that maybe they'll get back together CUZ I FIXED THEIR FRIENDSHIP (if ya'll remember, i did a chapter of it) 

and if he tries to hide the fact that him and meg got together, that will be the death of me

and now 

i dont know if i can give him his birthday present with all this shit that's happening to me before school starts 

i can't even rn 

CUZ FML AMIRITE BITCHES 

eyyy longest chapter of this book eeeyyy 

im gonna pray for strength to conquer this last week of summer vacation and end it on a happy note 

also like side note, i had this convo with kuro a while ago and he asked me why the weather here is perfect (its raining like hell here which i love)
i was gonna reply with "It's cold just like you, you COLD HEARTED SON OF A BITCH" but i didn't get to reply in time so he just answered his own question 

well that's all 

SHIRO OUT