Weeb's Diary

Half/Half

^ song is pretty dope if you ask me^

~11/15/17~

Okai so I'm feeling fine 
 Sorry if i didnt write yesterday 

I was busy doing half of #10 and binge watching on Jacksepticeye's Let's play of "South Park: The Fractured But Whole" 
Its just a very lazy day for me today 

I've been having mixed emotions towards two different people and I keep telling myself that I've moved on from that person but sometimes my feelings would come back and I keep telling myself no!, HE'LL NEVER LOVE YOU, HE HAS SOMEBODY ELSE, YOU'RE JUST FRIENDS, NOTHING MORE NOTHING LESS, HE'S YOUR BIG BROTHER, HE'S JUST YOUR FRIEND. . .

I dont know why i have that mindset. Im not a fuck girl, i swear and I dont two time. Im a good girl. I swear. 

Okay so you might be confused on who the fuck i'm talking bout. I dont wanna name drop so we'll just call them Metalhead and Stalker

Stalker (I know seems a bit creepy but hey, he's a nice guy) is a nice guy, trying to change for the good and such but sometimes can be the densest person EVER. Treats me well, i can say that. Makes me worry alot about his condition since he is sometimes sickly, can get to accidents frequently, get hurt alot, maybe break a few bones or something which i dont like but he does try to change and be a better person but can also break promises but meh. He's cute tho and plus his voice is to die for. He's a caring person i swear. 

Metalhead on the other hand. . .well. . . we had a history and he's very nice, caring and brother like. I dont know why but fuckin hell can he be a cute mf, he's pretty tall btw. I remember the time when it was break time in our school and I was hanging out with him when we stood up, he started looking above me and since he has another tall friend with him, he decided to tease me. He nudged his friend and said "Hey have you seen Shiro ?" and then put his hand over his eyes and his friend joined in and then i smacked him playfully "Im right here you tall mf" I huffed at them and they laughed and apologized but they still did it after a few days. I could tell more fun memories when we we're still very close but I rather not. It just kinda hurts me that when i mentioned something that we did in the past he would look at me in a confused way and i would just say Nevermind and act like i didn't say anything. It just means he probably has forgotten and such.

If these two people are reading this then well, hey -waves- wonderful day we're having. 

anyways,

Im procrastinating really badly cuz of the assignments and projects. i just did some small stuff but then got lazy. I know, i should get them done but i'll get to it I promise

I'll just be playing some Heroes of the storm and reading some Jacksepticeye Imagines and more Crush x reader cuz thats how far i'll ever get to being with someone ;-; 

well then people 

SHIRO OUT