Weeb's Diary

back at it again

6/7/18

eyy, it's me, back at it again with another breakdown and daily dose of depression :)

so um today or like um since yesterday, toni, wasn't feeling like herself and so i thought to cheer her up and all but before that 

i am actually shock for the first time in the whole 13 year friendship that we had since we were kids, i never have like fought with her nor had a problem so this is very new and shocking like fuck. I guess somethings just dont stay the same huh.

anywyas, i went to her house today but when i got to her room, she wouldn't let me in so i knocked, banged and even did some beat stuff on her door but then me being a stupid bitch, decided to barge the door, so i backed up and rammed the door only to do it twice since the first one hurt my shoulder then i gave up and kicked the door hard and then she finally opened the door 

and i walked inside only for her to go outside so i stayed lying in her bed for a few minutes then she came back and tried to shoo me but i stayed and so we stayed there on her bed, in silence, then after a few minutes, i couldn't take it so i left and went back here. 

im trying so hard not to have a breakdown nor cry, "i have to be strong" i told myself but nothing worked

i thought of maybe giving her space and hoping every would be okay tomorrow 

i felt like she doesn't want to talk to anybody rn so all i can do is mope around and be a useless shit 

so yeh 

and also school is close, fun. . .

anyways, that's all 

Shiro out :)