Weeb's Diary

WHERE IS THE WILL TO LIVE ?!

8/16/18

honestly, 

the first final examination drained me to the point i'll just write anything related to that subject AND WE STILL HAVE TO DO THE WHOLE MAGAZINE PROJECT THINGY THEN PLAY SOME PIECE ON A FLIPPIN RECORDER. That magazine shit, it's like history, science, computer, filipino (my native language) are like all mushed into this one project and the deadline is NEXT WEEK, AFTER THE EXAMINATION 

LIKE BITCH, CAN WE TAKE A FUCKING BREAK, LIKE PLEASE, WE AREN'T ROBOTS WHO CAN DO EVERYTHING ON TIME AND DO IT AT THE SAME TIME LIKE BITCH PLEASE, LET US TAKE A BREAK. 

also like Kuro likes somebody and he doesn't want to tell me which is odd since he would let me guess who the special girl of his dreams is but this time he was like "Don't guess it nor do process of elimination" also he would not give me a single flipping clue on who she is ! My curiosity and paranoia isn't helping at all.

I tend to pry too much and might end making him mad at me again and maybe he'll leave my life and me being paranoid on every little detail he does or sends me, I WOULD ALWAYS THINK IT'S SOMEHOW FUCKING RELATED TO THIS FUCKING GIRL ! 

LIKE BITCH, WHY AM I LIKE THIS ?! 
WHY ?! 

perfect timing, i also became a peer counselor for my school which is THE MOST IRONIC THING THAT COULD HAPPEN IN MY LIFE HOLY SHIT. I help everyone but i can't help myself, (even though i promise to help myself first before others, sorry kuro but believe me, i am trying my best). 

also also, have you guys felt like your not even enough to satisfy your friend's needs ??? 

like you give them everything you can give but they just want more and expect more from you but you can't anymore, you literally gave them everything you have to offer and they still complain it's not enough. what makes it worse is that my guilt will slowly make me suffer from the thought of it until it's been resolve or the fucks i give run out (which is just like ALMOST RUNNING OUT BUT I MANAGE)

ALSO ALSO ALSO (fucking kill me with all these also)

Kuro has been so confusing ever since he told me he likes somebody, like he would talk to me and reply very fast and then like the next, he'll ignore me or not even talk to me unless i talk first (SEE HOW MY PARANOIA WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME ?!) and he would always be super close to me whenever we hang out and stuff but don't get me wrong, i like it, but i NEED THE REASON ! ! 

LIKE WHY ARE YOU DOING THISSSSS ??!!! GIVE ME ANSWERS GOD FUCKING DAMMIT !!!!!!!!!

fun fact: Kuro over worries, if i over think, he over worries (PERFECT COMBO ! (fucking kill me please))

WHERE IS THE WILL TO LIVE ?! 

I CAN'T FUCKING FIND IT ?! 

MAYBE IT LEFT ME 

MAYBE IT GOT TIRED, JUST LIKE THE PEOPLE WHO LEFT AND WILL LEAVE MY LIFE 

this is the reason why i have this book 

im also gonna update the one shot one

im still working on it don't worry 

school's a bitch right now but i'll finish it 

i promise (at least i don't break this promise)

HAHAHAHAHAHAKILLMEHAHAHAHAHA

SHIRO OUT