Weeb's Diary

late night blues

1/12/19

so yeah 

as i said 

im updating again and ughh 

yeah 

its ya girl, depressive lil shit : )

"And I don't mean to make your heart blue 

But could we be what we're meant to be?

I'm just about to beg you please"

the lyrics that struck me hard hahahaha, 

honestly i asked loend to give me a depressing song and yah 

so ugh 

why am i like this again ? 

i can feel yur eyes rolling 

welllll

Im degrading myself EVEN MORE (if that's possible)

so remember the girl that i hate cuz she was being a clingy lil shit to kuro ? 

well that same girl had like (how do i explain this in english oml) like a pentakill ? 
kinda like that 

the highest rank of killing if you could put it that way 

and like she got so easily and it was the reason why kuro keeps playing with her and like um im not jealous at all but instead 

i was in mid game when i heard it and i was in discord with kuro and another friend and i suddenly grew quiet and trying my best not to make it obvious that i was having a dilemma 

after that game i instantly left and now, tear wouldnt come out 

ya know that feeling ? 

like tears wont come out and your heart just aches cuz of the pain that you're feeling 

side note:

for good news, um i bought a printer (finally) took like half of my school life to get me a fuckin printer 

and yah 

i guess 

this turned out to be short 

so yeah 

that's all 

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