Weeb's Diary

This will be over soon (I hope)

3-6-18

Honestly i know some of you are tired as fuck for reading this type of stuff 

but honestly 

no one would give a fuck 

not even my closest and bestest (is that even a fuckin word ?) friend in the whole world will not give a damn if i start breaking down. Im always there for her but is she there for me ? 

even my other close friends, i would break down at times but they would brush it off but if another person would break down, they would kick into full all hugs, all comfort mode 

and i'll be just there like, alright then, time to hide -then everyone has an x on their face like in Silent voice-

and even the guy i like, -sigh- honestly, i don't know why i try, i mean HE'S COMPLETELY OUT OF LEAUGE ! ! ! 

When i met or knew the girls and yes girls but there's only 3 but the 2nd one is still a mystery to me but the first one completely made me realize how much im not enough or worthy even. He said she was unpredictable, like a lock diary and not to mention she's cute as hell and also petite. I can't compete with that ! Im the complete opposite of unpredictable 

i mean i literally tell what i feel on the damn internet for fuck sake and im the showy type of person, a nosy, annoying, son of a bitch who would say whatever the fuck she wants but nobody likes that. 

People would just like ya know, pity you, like "oh wow, she's different and weird and annoying, might as well pretend we're friends and probably take advantage of her kindness" and i would be such a huge fool for falling for it but friendship is everything to me. 

i would cherish that shit like its my most favorite book in the world and i won't let nobody touch it and if i lose it well then, down to hell i go. 

i should be currently asleep by now but who cares anymore, i need to do this, or else i won't have closure with myself, if i dont tell anyone but in this case, write it or rant about it.

well anyways

i gotta go 

better be normal as possible 

like nothing has ever happened 

shiro, out