Weeb's Diary

I'm in the mood to chug a bottle of bleach

Dignity ? 
who's she ?

Self Esteem ?

Never heard of her. 

Life has this grip on you like, it'll grip you lightly, letting you feel happiness then grip you so hard until your bones get crushed, letting you anguish in a sudden attack.

That's exactly what im feeling. I guess the world can't let me be wholesome for more than 2 days huh, 

I was feeling so happy and cheery until somebody did something very stupid without asking my permission and breaking their own made promise in the process and i'll keep it bottled up cuz well, i dont want to bother people with my presence. While we're on the topic of not wanting people to see you nor acknowledge your presence, i've been watching "Rascal Does Not Dream Of Bunny Girl Senpai" and like the main girl cannot be seen except like other teens can see her because of something known as "Adolescence Syndrome" like all your teenage problems become a reality for example, the main boy's sister, suddenly cuts and bruises appear on her skin one day all because she was being cyber bullied. Kinda like that.

I want that honestly. Told Loend about it and I wanted to disappear but he said, "dont be like me, dont make the mistake i did" and it could've been easier said than done. But like, nobody's talking to me so i feel fine about this whole ordeal but still.

CARE TO ASK ME FIRST BEFORE DOING SOMETHING THAT COULD POTENTIALLY SCAR ME FOR LIFE ?! 

Basically I did something a thirsty ass hoe would do and this someone took a screenshot of the said convo and then send it to someone who i don't know nor knows me and now well, that person thinks i'm this bitch ass whore who want to get into someone's pants. 

Just what i needed, another traumatizing event that made me loose all hope I have in returning to my happy state. 

As i was at the peak of me being so happy, having a positive outlook on life. 

Someone just had to burn it all down, all my hard work, welp 

EEYY ITS YA BOI 

SUICIDAL SHIROOOO 

BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH THE HORRIBLE CASE OF DEPRESSION FILLED WITH BREAKDOWNS, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND SO MUCHH MOOREE

NOW INCLUDING, TRYING SO MANY WAYS TO KILL MYSELF 

i'm so done uuughh 

well anyways 

that's all 

SHIRO OUT (hopefully)