Weeb's Diary

ITS BEEN A WHILE (i think)

8/26/18

so it's been a while since i wrote anything on here,

also the song above is by Billie Eilish AND ITS ACCURATE (kinda dedicate it to a certain boy that starts with Y (you'll see later))

maybe because of school draining the life outta me or maybe the thing that happened with Kuro,

something along those lines :)

something happened a few days ago...remember the stalker dude or better yet, we'll call him Yuri, He and I were talking and yeah i know weird thing to do with someone you had a relationship with for over 3 years and it was your fault that the two of you broke up in the first place

anywaysss, 

we vidcalled and since we missed each other, we kinda did the occasional banter and flirting here and there but then things turned, he said he missed me, missed my smile, the cute face that would make his day better and the whole enchilada and of course 

me being me since well, i gotta be honest, after that break up, i had the two months of hell right, tried to move on from him but now, with Kuro as my crush and him well...i don't know... i still missed him, longed for him still but we can't be together anymore as Yuri stated himself...

things would get out of hand and history would repeat itself...it made me feel so confused with my feelings to the point, pretending is the only option that i can do, i told kuro about this but he didn't even tried (AND HE FUCKIN PROMISED ME but when he has a problem, i'll fucking help him even if im having my own problems to deal with) and now 

Flashbacks keep entering my mind. It can't shake it off, i don't know what to do anymore.

It's like I lost the map that i needed that guides me through this wild ass journey called life

and im just stuck walking aimlessly in a forest

WHY AM I BEING SO METAPHORIC TODAY ?! 

i hate it myself too dear readers when i become sentimental

 well anyways 

school is still a fucking bitch and my first task as a peer counselor is to make posters and or flyers for the upcoming Mental Awareness even we're gonna do and i'm procrastinating really hard because im still drained from the previous major project that i've done WHICH I WAS THE ONE WHO DID EVERYTHING IN THAT DAMN ASS PROJECT AND MY GROUPMATES DIDN'T EVEN HELP ME 

so yeah 

that's all for now (probably start a new chappy for my one shot book)

SHIRO OUT !