Weeb's Diary

I'm not doing so good...

9/18/18

honestly 

yes, if some of you are wondering why the hell those it take me a few days or weeks to upload or do a chapter, the reason behind it is because school and friend problems and maybe some additional family problems as well has been getting to me lately 

It kinda took a toll on me actually, all the those times that i got so stressed, pressured, can't satisfy my friends with what they wanted from me, all school related shits that i've been cooping up in the back of my mind, everything. I brushed it all off, pretending that i didn't get hurt, that i'm just a fun happy cheery gal 

It's hard to keep that attitude for so long. I kinda broke earlier by umm say embarrassing myself and disappointing my one friend who is such a pro at a game that i play and well I was playing well until my aunt came up to me, handed me a piece of paper with her writing, "do this project for your sister" I asked when and she said tomorrow AND I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MATCH. i said wait and then she was like "Your addicted to that game, stop playing it, it's bad for your health". I replied with "NO IM NOT" in a semi- blunt tone and then well she forced me and my phone lagged so i had to restart it but she wouldn't let me play my phone until i finish doing that fucking project

by the time i finished it, the round was over, and the last thing i saw from my friend, "You useless teammates" and he can be so fucking strict when in game and i hate that i disappointed him.

You guys know that i have this habit of mine that whenever someone asks me a favor or a question. I need to do good and actually give them the satisfaction that they want from me so it's very hard for me to say no (even if my life or important shit is at stake). I honestly have a less care for myself and i care for alot of people, i put them first before me. 

even though i do care for myself sometimes but meh 

i dunno 

well 

that's all 

hope you guys understand and junk 

Shiro Out