Weeb's Diary

Shitstorm of stuff

~11/23/17~

Alright so ! 

im sorry for not updating in the last few days or week, i dunno, some stuff has happened 

First is that im doing a performance tomorrow for my school's 40th anniversary, i was picked and i just said "meh, alright", the performance was called "Play of hands" in which all lights are closed, you wear all black clothing and you wear white gloves and then you form words in the dark with your hands. its fun thing to do but kinda frustrating as well since you have to make your hands like the perfect necessary shape fitted for that letter you are doing and what do i get for joining with other more people to do this, PLUS GRADES MADERPACKERS ! ! !

Protip ! (dis meme shall not die): Join school activities/events so you can earn extra grades/credits so you cant fail ! ! !

Second, something happened on a afternoon in where my best friend fainted and I panicked so hard that i was literally shaking her vigorously for her to wake up. I was with her boyfriend and Stalker.  Her boyfriend suddenly said "She fainted" and then thats where i panicked and frantically shaked her. Since we were beside some lockers and some students went up to their lockers to see a girl lying there and they couldn't get to their locker so I offered my help and so i was the one who lockered for them and then her boyfriend suggested that i should call someone so i did, I called her mother and boi, i couldn't understand a word she was saying considering, we were in a place with loads of people and it was pretty noisy and then right on time, our English teacher came in and took the lead, i gave him the phone and talked with her mother and then we carried her to the clinic. 

After putting her in the clinic, me, her boyfriend and stalker went outside and then thats when i started to break down and have a panic attack. Stalker, being the softy and caring person that he is was very sweet and kept calming me down while her boyfriend did the same, they both led me to the place where we were before and i immediately lied on the floor, just looking like a rag doll. Then stalker came beside me and lifted my head so that it was resting on his lap. He was telling me that "She'll be fine, dont worry, she's strong" and all that jazz, cuz i never IN MY LIFE been in a situation in where someone who's very close to me just up and fainted. He was caressing my hair and playing something on his smol guitar and did i mention that stalker is actually in a band that he and his friends made, its called "Men-archy" and he is the vocalist which is nice, he sings very well tho. 

We waited for about like 20 mins or so and then she woke up and then thats that. I aint telling no more. 

and last is just me having like these depression/ aggression attacks, like the need to have someone to hug or comfort you for. I've been having those lately and Stalker is apparently grounded so i have to stick by myself and good thing that my best friend was there and she comforted me but. . . it's not the same as his. . . but anyways. Im performing tomorrow and needing his support to inspire me to do well and basically live life. He has done this twice. The first one is when i was entered in a Character Speech competition in our school so like you need to cosplay as someone like an anime character for example and you have to imitate his/her personality by making your own script and such and it was the day of the performance and also the day that he promised as well to join me in eating in the Grade 10's fancy shmancy resto (its like their project or something ) and WHAT FUN HE WAS ABSENT ON THAT DAY !, so i had to sit alone in a table, i ate quickly since i was getting a bit uncomfortable since every table is filled with people and im just sitting their alone. . . so i ate and then changed into my costume. I did "Reiji Sakamaki" from Diabolik Lovers. 

I was sad that he wasn't their to support me so yeh. 

Im really sorry that i didn't write in the last few days. . 

i haven't even started writing chapter 11 yet. . . sorry ! !!
I'll try and update as soon as possible 

so yeh 

SHIRO OUT