Weeb's Diary

the pain of having a popular friend

4/10/19

ey its ya girl 

back at it again with this shit 

i swear i thought summer would be a break from all the bullshit but nah 

it sticks to me like how glue sticks to shit 

anyways 

the matter at hand is that well 

it goes like this:

i wanted to tie up loose ends with people i have a concern on and Loend was on that list and he was the last one and i did confront to him about it and well it didnt end well like the others did

I knew that he was a popular being and that i should've avoided him but i didn't 

it never occurred to me that this would happen 

i mean, he suddenly got into a high prestigious squad in ml and like he's the star there 

i shouldn't bother with that 

im too weak for that shit 

i was once like that to be honest back when i was like in 5th or 6th grade, i got a squad and everything and then like 

had my downfall and then a final push to know

where i have social anxiety

i just...fucking hell....why

its now taking a toll on me 

hits hard like a darn truck 

the reason being that i dont want to have a popular friend is cuz: 
yur just the least important friend in his crowd of friends and yur just there, standing and being the odd one out reason being that you dont have a fucking squad and cuz you're such a lonely bitch 

i really did consider him as a close friend cuz like he understands me 

i wonder how he would react to losing me as a friend 

i bet it'll just be 

"eh, i didn't need her anyways" 

im probably overthinking but gawd 

that's what im legit feeling rn 

oh well 

the song above is just to make me happy at least 

just recently stan TXT or Together X Tomorrow 

my bias is Kai, who is older than me by a year 

but eh 

well that's all 

Shiro out