"Have you ever felt like there's something missing in your life? I mean someone who supposed to be in your life but you just couldn't recall the memories. You just knew somewhere in your mind that there's a missing pieces that only her existence would evince."
"You mean like a selective amnesia or repressed memories?"
"Certainly."
"No. Why?"
"Because that's what I'm feeling right now. I'm missing someone I didn't know."
It's been a week since the last time Nathan sneaked into my room to tell me random stuffs like we used to do before and I'm still bothered on what he have said. I knew he was a bit drunk that time and maybe that's the reason why he unconsciously confessed those. And people said that the tipsy one will always tell the truth and will tell what's in the bottom of there heart.
Then there's this question in my mind, am I not enough? Is he aware that he did confessed it to his girlfriend? Because it hurts. I missed him so much but it turned out that he's missing someone else.
Then suddenly I realized, I've done it to him most of the time. Masakit pala.
"Hey! Are you even listening!?" I just smiled at Iyel as he yell at me because I constantly repeat my mistakes in plucking and I'm messing up the practice. How would I listen if all I could hear was Nathan's voice telling me he's missing someone he didn't even know?
"Let's end this. I'm really tired." I excused myself to the band and headed to the exit door because I feel like I was about to cry.
"Hi ate Rayne. Napadalaw ka?" Masayang bati ni Jill pagkabukas niya ng gate nila. Yes, dumiretso ako sa bahay nina Nathan dito sa Manila.
"Is Nathan inside?" I hopefully asked.
"Yep. Kakarating niya lang din. Bakit hindi ka pa sumabay sa kanya?" Sabi niya habang naglalakad kami papasok sa bahay nila. Wala akong maisagot sa totoo lang. Hindi ko nga alam kung anong nangyayari sa'min e. Ang hirap ng walang communication.
"Hindi niya alam na maagang matatapos ang practice namin." Sagot ko na lang since may katotohanan naman.
Dumiretso ako sa kwarto niya at nadatnan siya doon na nag-aaral. Oo nga pala, may contest pa siyang sasalihan at mas priority niya iyon kesa sa akin ngayon. Nakakasawang makipagkompetensya sa mga priorities niya. Nami-miss ko na ang dating ako lang, na kahit sobrang busy niya, still ako ang first priority. Ganon ba talaga? Kapag may pinanghahawakan ka na, hindi ka na mag-effort para mas mag-work ang relationship niyo dahil alam mong sa'yo na siya? Ayokong dumating kami sa puntong komportable na siyang hindi ako mawawala sa kanya kaya pwede na siyang magloko kahit harap-harapan pa.
Huminga ako nang malalim saka isinuot ang ngiti na gusto kong bumungad sa kanya kapag nakita niya ako. Tinakpan ko ang mata niya mula sa likod saka nagpakita sa kanya nang tinanggal niya ang kamay ko.
"Baby!" Masayang bati nito saka tumayo at niyakap ako nang mahigpit. "My baby. I really miss you, Jaz." Ramdam kong ang saya at pagkamiss sa yakap at boses niya kaya niyakap ko rin siya pabalik.
"Sus. Miss daw e hindi ka nga gumagawa ng paraan para magkita tayo." Nagtatampong sagot ko. Naramdaman ko ang pagdampi ng kanyang mga labi sa noo ko at tinitigan ako.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being an irresponsible boyfriend to you. But don't worry, this will end soon." He said as he caress my face. "Wait for the Valentine's day and this will be over." My heart jumped as he mentioned that special day. Palagi akong nakakatanggap ng chocolates at bouquet with matching harana mula sa kanya every February 14 and I'm expecting something more special this year since this is our first Valentine's day being a couple.
BINABASA MO ANG
Trouble Yet Indispensable
Духовные"If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there; if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath. Disciples so often get into trouble; still, God is there every time." (Psalm 34:18-19 MSG) Christians were not exempted in facing...
