2018 WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY

weight loss day 20!

OMG! three weeks already! i don't think i lost any weight this week AT ALL i ate so much junk the last two days and a pizza this morning so i'm gonna eat an apple for lunch, and take a nap when i get home so i don't get tempted to eat anything, then i'm gonna download this app my mom told me and learn a dance from there!

so i forgot i was having a sleepover tonight with my cousin, so i couldn't workout and i ate a LITTLE bit of hot cheetos not a lot tho, and for dinner i didn't really eat that much either. i had the lemon pepper fish but i rarely ate it and only ate like a third of the fish and let my cousin have the rest haha.

i ate so much junk this week i feel like i just gained all of my weight back. i'm so frikin disappointed in myself because i knew i was gonna gain it back so why didn't i stop myself. i'm going to push myself extra hard next week and drink a smoothie for breakfast, apple for lunch, cheese for snack, and healthy choice for dinner for one whole week. i don't care what we're doing that day i'm just gonna do that. i'm honestly so dedicated, i've never been this dedicated in my life i just cut so much slack on me and been focusing on social media and caring about other people rather than focusing on schoo and caring about myself. for now on until january is over, i'm gonna care about myself more and make myself happy, and focus on school more and get my grades up. i cant believe i did this to myself i'm so overly dramatic. but i'm just so disappointed in myself for letting go of myself and letting me eat whatever i want. i have to be strict. my challenge is getting closer to being done but i haven't reached anything and it's already the second week. i have 6-7 weeks left and it's going by quick. it'll go by quicker if i really focus on getting to my goals. i'm gonna plan out every day and everything before hand so i don't let myself go. good night! tomorrow is weigh in day oof.