Jake Paul Imagines

Stopped

"What stopped?" I asked, my eyes were so dry- I'd cried for hours and I had no more left. "What do you mean?" He asked, he wasn't even tearing up. His eyes were sad, but at the same time he looked like he couldn't care less. "What stopped? The love? The lust? The reasons you loved me...where'd they all go?" I cried. Finally, his eyes glossed over. "They haven't gone anywhere, they're still here. I haven't stopped loving you, I promise." He said, I wiped my eyes. "Then why did you break up with me? Why'd you tell me you didn't feel the same anymore..." I stuttered through my tears. "I love you, I love you more and more everyday if it's even possible to love someone that much. There's nobody else I want to wake up with, love, and spend the rest of my life with. I made a mistake, I was confused and in a major headfuck. I thought me and you breaking up would help both of our stress levels, but it's made it worse, because I simply can't live without you." He said. I felt a smile curl on my lips, but quickly dropped it, when I remembered the way he'd gone about dumping me. "You could've told me you thought it would help the stress. Instead of telling me you didn't love me anymore, do you know what that does to a person?" I said, my voice broke as more tears escaped my eyes. "I can't do anything to fix this can I?" He said trying so hard to hold the tears back. "I love you Jake, I have never loved someone the way I love you, but maybe you're right you just don't feel the same anymore." I turned away and walked back into the house.

I went up to my room and pulled a suitcase out my wardrobe. I threw in the essentials I need for a couple days away- lingerie, some hoodies, leggings, cropped jumpers, skincare, makeup, hair things etc. I zipped it up and grabbed my phone. I threw my coat on and went downstairs. Everyone was hovering around the hallway of the house. "Where are you going?" Anthony asked, Jake stood next to him and looked at me, his eyes full of tears. He quickly wiped them as they began to fall. "I think I need some time out, I'll deal with the backlash. I'm going to write a post for my social media's and just refresh everything and rejuvenate. I really need it." I said quietly. I said goodbye to everyone and Jake insisted on carrying my suitcase to the car. He put it in my boot and his arms lifted as if he was going to hug me and tell me he loved me, but he quickly dropped them back down. "I'm sorry and I won't ever stop being sorry. I love you, I love you, I love you. Please stay safe and make sure you come home." He said, it was the first time in our 3 year relationship that I'd seen him cry. "I know you're sorry. And I'll drive safe, and I'll be back." I saw him realise I didn't tell him I loved him too and a quiet sob escaped his mouth.

I drove and drove for a solid 6 hours, I pulled over for food and ended up completely breaking down. I felt sick, lonely, lost and like my world was slowly falling to pieces.

The last few weeks have been full of stress- I've had meetings, shoots, brand deals, we did some one of surprise concerts in Florida for the students at the shooting, then I flew to Florida for a meeting, then Chad's Dad passed away, so we were all helping him with that. I've barley slept, eaten or been alone in the past 3 weeks and it's completely drained me. I can't function properly, because I'm not getting a break. Being a YouTuber/social media influencer is a 24/7 job.

I think it's what's slowly started to break Jake and I down, we never have a 'shut off' time or 'alone' time or even 'date night'. We live in a world where's it's go,go,go all the time and we barley have time to sleep.

I regretted driving so far, because now I was tired, upset and just wanted Jake. I left in the heat of the moment and I knew he'd feel guilty and be worrying about me. I rung him and just cried. "I drove straight for 6 hours- I'm lost and I'm tired and I just wanted to tell you how much I love you and that I shouldn't have run away from our problems." I sobbed. "Hey, Hey, hey- drive to the nearest hotel and I'll come and pick you up ASAP okay?" He said worriedly. "I don't think I can do this anymore Jake..." I sobbed. "LISTEN!" He said firmly. "I love you and me and Anthony will come and pick you up now. We'll bring you a pillow and blanket, so you can sleep tomorrow on the way home. I love you, stay safe and text me when you get to a hotel okay?" "Okay." I whispered. "Jake..." I said. "Yes beautiful." "It stopped."