Jake Paul Imagines

Looking At You Now

"I love you." He grinned, kissing me. Everyone was having such a beautiful night, it had been everything we had hoped and more. His smile was lighting up the room, we got some more drinks from the bar and one of our friends Lola came over. "Ah congratulations!" She grinned, holding my hand in hers. "Jordan you did good it's a gorgeous ring." She said running her finger over the ring. "She's a beautiful girl, so she needed a beautiful ring." He said kissing the top of my head. I glanced over to the doorway and Jake was there, luckily nobody had noticed yet, but my heart suddenly pounded a hundred times faster. I felt my blood pressure rocket. "What the fuck is he doing here?" Jordan was angry within seconds.

I met Jordan just after Jake had cheated on me, I was in a horrific place- I was depressed beyond depressed. Jordan saved my life, I fell in love with him and we've been together for 4 years now. I haven't seen Jake for four years, since we broke up after he'd cheated. 

"Please stay calm. Let me deal with this." I said, holding back my emotions, Jordan dropped my hand and walked over to his friends. I felt guilty even going near Jake when Jordan had worked so hard to help me be okay again. It was like I'd come a thousands steps forward and I was about to go two thousand steps back. I went over. "Come outside now." I said angrily, I followed him out and we went a little bit away from the venue, so nobody saw. He looked the same as he did 4 years ago- desperate for me and heartbroken that he had caused me so much pain. "Why are you here now? WHY ARE YOU HERE?" I shouted, I wasn't upset just anger pure anger. "Because, you can't marry him, we are meant to be together. Me & you, you & I, Jake & Y/N. That is what was meant to happen and it's taken me 4 years to realise you really are gone this time. That you won't walk back through the door and say you forgive me, that you're ready to start fresh. And I get that it's 4 years too late to fight for you, but I had to tell you." Surprisingly, I wasn't crying. I was just so mad at him.

"Looking at you now, all I feel is pure anger towards you. I want to hit you over and over again until you feel just a little like I did. I will marry Jordan, because he saved me after you threw me away. He stopped me from killing myself not physically but mentally. He literally saved me Jake. You were okay to cheat and then never see me again. That's what you were ready to do whether it was a mistake or not. That's what you did, you did that with intent. Then, you wait 4 years...it could've been tomorrow, but you came again with intent to hurt me all over again. Everything you've done has hurt me, that's what happened. You can't keep saying it was a mistake." A few tears rolled down his face and I still felt 100% angry. "Everything about what I've done was a mistake..." He said. "No. I made the mistake of falling in love with you. I should've never allowed myself to get attached, because we knew in the end you would be the one to fuck up. We knew from the beginning that you would mess it up and we ignored it. I ignored it, because I was so blinded by my own stupid love."

Finally telling him how I felt, I felt so in control of my own feelings again. 

"I hate you, every nerve in my body carries hatred for you Jake. I categorically do not love you and I really hope I never see you again." I turned around and walked back inside. I felt so proud of myself.