Jake Paul Imagines

Our Journey

He kissed me and I was happy. He held my hand and I was happy. He told me he loved me and I was happy. He cheated on me...I wasn't happy.

The quiet buzz of my TV woke me up, I squinted at my phone it was 8:49am. I must've fallen asleep watching the TV last night. I struggled to sleep, because my mind was racing at 1000mph. It was crazy, crazy to think that someone who claims to love you more than life can wreck you within a matter of minutes.

I turned the TV up and pulled my duvet up under my chin. I had so much to get done, but so little energy. Eventually, I dragged myself to the window and pushed it open. It was a hot day and everyone was in the pool. Since Jake and I broke up after he cheated exactly 3 days ago, I'd barely left my room. I was sick a couple of times and then crashed. I haven't spoken to him, but I keep replaying it over in my mind.

                                                          **flashback, 3 days ago**

"Have you been on Twitter?" I asked, he sat on the bed. "No why?" He frowned trying to cuddle me. I jumped up. "Go on look." Tears filled my eyes as he unlocked his phone and opened Twitter. The video blasted out of his phone and a hot tear dropped off my face. "Baby...." He started, tossing his phone onto the bed. "Don't baby me. Don't you dare patronize me. You kissed another girl a week ago, didn't tell me. Maybe, if you'd have told me- just maybe we could've fixed it. I went on stage with you last night, do you understand how humiliating that is?" I shouted, I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand. "I promise it was a mistake..." He said, his eyes glossed over. "No the mistake was me thinking you loved me. Get out of my room." I hit his arm and he didn't flinch. He tried to hold me, think of every excuse under the sun. "I SAID GET OUT."  I screamed. He walked out and I slammed the door. My hand ached as my stomach churned. Everything was in tatters, my world had come crashing down around me within just a few seconds. I ran into my toilet and threw up. I was an absolute mess. My body was shaking with disgust and fear for the future. Eventually, after 2 hours of sobbing in a locked room, I calmed down and went downstairs. I made myself a cup of tea. 

**end of flashback**

I swung my legs out of bed and let the soles of my feet rest on the cold floor, it sent shivers up my spine. I threw a hoodie over my pyjamas and went downstairs. I was greeted by Athena. "Hello gorgeous girl." I grinned, playing with her. Anthony came round the corner with Rocky. "Hey Y/N!" Rocky exclaimed. "Hey." I smiled up at her, I stood up and she hugged me tightly. "I'm so proud of you, I know how hard it is." She whispered. Anthony squeezed my hand. "You're doing so well."

I said 'good morning' to everyone and then made myself a hot coffee, I curled my legs up and sat on the sofa. I missed Chad's song launch, so he was showing me on the TV. When Jake started rapping- my heart ached for a second, and then my feelings went numb. I sighed a breath of relief quietly, that must mean I'm healing. "I love it!" I grinned once it had finished. I hung out with everyone and then headed upstairs. I showered and changed into my outfit- ripped, skinny jeans and a crop top. I heard the door creak open and then slam shut. Jake walked round the corner and my eyes filled with tears. "I don't want to talk to you Jake." I snapped, he sighed as his eyes glossed over. "What I did was a huge mistake, because the past 3 years we've been together have been magical. I love you so much Y/N and hurting you....well there's no other words except what the fuck have I done? You're perfect and you don't deserve the pain I've so wrongfully caused you. You mean so much to me and I will do anything to fix this." He sounded genuine and I knew he was.

Jake and I met 3 years ago when he moved out to L.A, I had been living here with some friends and we met at a party. I thought he was cute and funny, so we went on a date. We lit a spark that has never gone out on that night. I've had a few relationships in the past, but none were like what I had with Jake. He rocked my world and showed me life in this incredible light. Then, I watched him build Team Ten which is possibly the most rewarding thing I've ever seen. We had so many special memories together and it's thanks to him that I have the career I do.

"I know you're sorry..." I started, I was trying so hard to fight back the tears. "I know you Jake and I know you had way too much to drink that night and that you'll regret it for the rest of your life. I know that you love me more than life. I know this Jake and reiterating it doesn't change what's happened. I'm hurt, so hurt you can't even comprehend it." His eyes threatened to spill with tears, I watched him bite down on the inside of his cheek. "I'm in a world of pain that I would never wish on anyone...not even my worst enemy. I'm embarrassed, angry, upset, frustrated, ashamed, heartbroken- the list goes on. Please understand that I love you too, more than life itself. You light up my life Jake, but I can't pretend that these horrible feelings aren't there." I finished and a tear rolled down my cheek, he wiped his own eyes and quietly sobbed. 

When he looked at me again, I saw a reflection of myself. He was embarrassed, angry, upset, frustrated, ashamed and heartbroken. "I'm not breaking up with you, I think we both need space- to put out our own personal statements on the situation to calm the media and then have time to think. Then, in a few weeks time we can talk again when our emotions aren't so raw." I hugged him tightly.

Y/N's statement:

Thankyou for all of your concern surrounding the situation between Jake and I. Right now, both of our emotions are raw and fresh. We both need time alone to think and have our own space. As of now, I hope we can work through our problems. So please, don't send hate to Jake...have love for the both of us, because our journey isn't over just yet.

-Y/N x

Jake's statement:

I'm sorry to everyone I let down or disappointed with my disgusting actions. I love Y/N so, so much and that's why we both need time out. She needs space and I need to work out how to deal with all the repercussions of such a disgraceful situation. I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. Thank-you to everyone for the messages of support with our decision. Our journeys only just begun.

-Jake x