Jake Paul Imagines

Look- Part Four (FINAL PART)

Hospitals smell like fear. They smell like everyone inside is feeling some level of fear. Most patients are scared of what will happen to them if they'll be okay, their family and friends are scared if they'll be okay and outsiders...outsiders fear as soon as everyone else fears.

I sipped my coffee, it ran down my throat and I closed my eyes. My head hurt, I hadn't been sleeping. "Morning sweetie." Mum said chirpily, cleaning around me. "Morning." I yawned. Everything around me seemed like a quiet buzz, my life felt like it was frozen in time. Like I'd never escape this pain.

**4 days earlier**

We all piled into the car and headed out for the meal. I sat down in the car and shuffled over, so Josh could squeeze in. I clicked my seatbelt in and he sat next to me. I looked into his eyes and fear swirled around in the pit of my stomach. The same fear I have when I go to a hospital, the fear I have when something's about to go wrong.

We all ate and had a laugh. He ended up staying over. Once we were back, I went into my bathroom and took my makeup off. I tied my hair into a messy bun and put on an oversized T-Shirt. I brushed my teeth and flicked the light off. I shut the door and went over to my bed. Josh got down to his boxers and climbed in. I pushed the pillows off and got in next to him. "Lets take a cute selfie for your Snapchat." I grinned, he passed me his phone and I started snapping pictures. His phone buzzed and a text from ''Molly😍' came through. I clicked on it and he tried to grab his phone. "What are you..." He grunted trying to snatch it. I scrolled through. 'I'll text you when I've left hers, can't wait to see you gorgeous- Josh' My eyes were streaming as I found several different girls. I got out of the bed.

"You...you..." I stuttered, in complete shock. I wiped my eyes. "Get your shit and get out. I'm so done. SO FUCKING DONE!" I sobbed. He tried to hold me, he was word vomiting excuses and trying to find some shitty way to make it my fault. I was zoned out, I felt like my entire world was crumbling down around me. "Please just leave." I whispered. He got his clothes on and grabbed his bag. "I'm sorry, I love you so much." He said, his eyes full of tears. "Just get out." I muttered. My stomach tightened as he walked out. I wanted him to leave, yet I wanted him to stay and beg.

**end of flashback**

I finished my coffee and went upstairs. I threw on a jumper and ripped jeans. I straightened my hair and didn't wear makeup. Again. I was guran-fucking-teed to cry in front of everyone again. I got to school and I felt completely broken inside. I walked behind everyone, staring into space, feeling like I had no air left. Like my emotions were suffocating me. Like I couldn't survive it. Like it was a black hole that I kept falling further and further.

"Hey Y/N..." I was snapped out of my daydream and looked up. Jake was stood in front of him. His hair was messy, his eyes glistening with tears. "Hey Jake." I said, my voice came out hoarsely. "I wanted to say I'm here if you want to talk. I can't believe what Josh..." I cut him off. "You can believe it Jake, you all believe it. You all warned me, told me what would happen. I didn't listen, I fell madly in love with someone who didn't love me. Yet I couldn't see you were there. Someone who's always loved me. You. You've been there no matter what." I said, tears raced down my face.

"I love you Jake, I want you, I need you. You have always been there for me no matter what. Come rain or shine it's been you stood there at the end of the day. Through it all. I love you." I gushed. I stepped forward. "I want this, I've always wanted this." His thumbs wiped my tears away. "I love you too." He kissed me softly and everything felt perfect. All over again.