"Home" -Jaegan

•Please•

Raegan's pov:

Justin and I ate breakfast. Talked a little, the usual. Now we are just sitting on my bed, silently.

"Do you uh.." I start but decide not to finish.

"What?" He asks looking at me.

"Do you want to maybe go outside?" I ask. His eyes widen and he shakes his head.

"I don't mean like go anywhere. You know my backyard is fenced in and I have a back deck. Maybe we can go out there and you can get some fresh air." I say. He looks to be thinking.

"For a little while, sure." He smiles. My face turns blank as I stare at him. He covers his face with the sleeves of the hoodie he is wearing.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" He asks. He thinks I can't see those little cheeks so his get pink.

"I-I'm just thinking." I swallow and stand up off my bed. He gets off  too and grabs my hand. I look down and smile.

I bring him downstairs slowly and to the back door. He looks out the screen door and I turn to him. I gently put one hand on his waist and he looks down at it. I put my other hand on the other side. He inhaled deeply and looks up into my eyes.

"No one is back here and no one will hurt you." I say. He nods.

"I will protect you for a as long as you need. There may be people looking for you, but they don't know who you have with you." He puts his hands on mine that are on his waist.

"I appreciate it Raegan. You have been the nicest person to me in a while and.." He looks down down at my hands again. "I'm getting more comfortable around you." His lips form a smile and his eyes twinkle.

"You already mean to much to me. I never want to let you go-"

"Ok stop with all the sad stuff." He laughs. "Let's go outside." He says.

"Yeah." I nod and open the door. We both walk out but he takes a bit longer to get used to it. I have a  glass table and chairs on the back desk so I take him over and we sit down next to each other.

"Nice out, right?" I ask.

"Yea really nice." He looks around and taps his foot on the ground.

"Hey you're okay. I'm here." I say. He looks over at me and nods. He moves his chair so he's facing me and not the table. I do the same and we just look at each other.

I can't do this anymore. I think I'm falling for him. I've never dated or liked a boy before. But he's different. We have some stuff in common. He's sweet and caring. He was scared but he trusted me. He's beautiful inside and out. I care about him more than he thinks.

"Justin." I move to the edge of my chair and bring my hand up to his face. I rest it on his cheek and he smiles at me.

"Yeah Raegan?" He asks. My other hand goes around the back of his neck and he looks confused. My hand that is on the back of neck brings his face forwards a bit. My face gets closer to his face and I glance down at his lips. He's just staring at me waiting to know what I'm going to do.

I tilt my head be slightest and lean in. Once my lips touch his I felt like it was just us two in the world. Nothing else mattered. It didn't matter that he ran away from something and I'm keeping here secret. It didn't matter that whoever is looking for him can easily find us out here. It didn't matter. How could it?

I feel he only kisses back a little. After a few seconds he abruptly pulls away and starts to breath heavy.

"O-oh my god." He quickly stands up and runs towards the stairs off my deck. I run after him and go quickly down the stairs.

"Justin please wait." I start to panic when I see him run into the woods.

"Justin no!" I yell and run as fast as I can in the woods after him. I see him running but then he disappears. I starts to run in different directions not caring if I get lost.

"Please Justin. I'm so sorry!" I start to sweat and tears fall down my face. Fuck i'm so stupid, I scared him off.

"Please." I say quietly as I stop running. I'm out of breath. Where did he go? He ran so fast. No no no I can't lose him.

"I'm sorry." I drop to my knees and sob into my hands. I like him so much and I let that get the best of me. I knew he was still scared. I knew it was still early, but I've falling for him so god damn hard.

I stand back up and start to walk more into the woods. I call his name occasionally but nothing. Not a sound except the outside creatures and twigs breaking below me.

He's gone. He's no where to be been. Maybe after a twenty minutes, I turn around and start to head back home.

He told me he was happy with me. He was getting more comfortable with me. He said he never wanted to leave me. I know this is my fault but he just ran off? Why was he so scared? I thought it was going to be okay in a small way but I was wrong. I start to cry again thinking about all of this. He's gone. He can't trust me anymore and I'll never see him again.

I find the way back to my house and go inside. I run up to my room and slam my door shut falling for my bed. I can't go to school tomorrow, I need to do something. I need to find him.

Where is Justin? Will Rae find him? Will someone else find him? 🤷‍♀️ Predictions?