Winter's Love

40

For some strange reason I got up before the alarm would sound, so I decided to go to the company and practice for a while. I had not danced for several days and as always it happened to me, the body began to fill with knots. I prepared as soon as I could and left with practical clothes, packing another one to change. I always did exercises before leaving for the company, except for the days when I'm late like yesterday. Since it was very early, I decided to run today.

I came to the company with ragged breathing, but in a good mood that was immediately turned off when I entered the practice room and I remembered that Ravi and Hana were practicing who knows how many hours... Hours in which they possibly touch each other and so on. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath while stretching my arms. I sat on the floor and stretched my feet with the music in the background. Breathe Lore, breathe. He has not committed a capital crime.

As always happened when I danced, everything else disappeared from my mind. So the notes of the songs were more than welcome. I embraced each melody while my body expressed the mixture of feelings I was unable to explain with words. Suddenly I felt that I was in the room where I practiced so many times and it made me nostalgic. I missed my family and friends very much. After an hour of dancing, I went to the showers. I left them as a renewed woman. Then I looked for the cell phone, but it was not among my things. Surely I left it in the practice room. With a sigh, I returned.

Where the hell had I left it? I searched everywhere and couldn't find it. Everything seemed to be against me today. Or was it my mood that made everything gray? Whatever it is, I was looking for the mobile throughout the practice room as a hurricane and couldn't see it.

-What the hell? I'm sure I brought it -I looked behind the music equipment-. What are you doing there? -I took my cell phone with a smile. Maybe now things would go much better. There wasn't much celebration when I just felt that the door opened. Ravi entered the room, dressed in one of those strange combinations that made me wonder sometimes what child dressed him.

-Good morning -I giggled. He just crossed his arms in the chest and looked at me with a half-smile on his lips, which looked more like a grimace.

-I can't say it's just good morning –I laughed.

-Then you need to dance, that was what put me in a good mood... I'll be back, I'll call Hana to help you -I didn't know where that came from, and I couldn't stop it either. He laughed, but it was not a happy laugh.

-I wasn't the one who left all perfect for your date.

-Ja! I was going to work, Won Sik. I'm not a slug like Hana is with you -When did we get close? I don't know, but we were facing each other. I with my hands on my hips and he still crossed his arms. Surely it was a perfectly funny painting to observe.

-Working? -His eyebrows gathered in confusion, but he was quickly replaced by indifference-. I don't believe it -I breathed exasperated-. What were you two working?

-In something that doesn't imply physical contact.

-You misunderstood...

-It didn't look like it -I cut him off. Although at this point I didn't know why we were fighting... He was very perfect there. Concentrate, Lore.

-I met Hana on the way out -Ah, yes. That's what we talked about. Anyway, I wasn't in my rights to fight him for that.

-With whom you relate, has nothing to do with me. Whether you go out with Hana or any other -So sad reality-. Why are we fighting anyway? -I had a mood that the devil was taking me. So I decided to leave, before it got worst. Ravi clung to my left arm to hold me. He looked at me intensely.

-From where I see it, everything that has to do with you concerns me and vice versa -I was frozen in my place. Those blessed words pierced my heart.

-I don't know what you're talking about -I knew what he was talking about. But if he said he felt the same way I feel about him, going back would be the most painful thing I would ever do.

-Ha Neul, listen carefully... -He was going to say something that I always dreamed to hear. The joy and fear mixed in a sea of ​​feelings that drowned me. Ravi came over and put a hand on my face. His eyes were brighter than any star I could have seen and the tender smile on his lips told me much more than anything he could say-. I really am... -No, don't say it. Please, don't say it. Please, say it.

The door opened and VIXX entered. We were so absorbed that our reaction time was slow, so most of them gave us confused glances to see us so close and Ravi's hand still on my face. I walked away immediately, meeting Leo's curious gaze. I tried to say something, but the words didn't exist in my confused mind. My heart was beating madly. And happiness was born bright in my chest, drowned at the edges with the black of reality.

-You're ok? -Hyuk looked at me worried. I nodded absently. Without saying half a word, I left the room. Far from him, the smile that had formed on my face was fading because of the tears that unwittingly appeared in my eyes.

Maybe if I resisted enough, Ravi would realize that what he feels for me is nothing more than the mere curiosity to be different and he would notice someone of his own age and environment. A person that fits perfectly with him and his life, which has something to offer to make him grow. As much as I hated him, I wasn't that person. I must be strong and keep my feelings striped... For him, for his dreams.