Winter's Love

Bonus Chap. 8

So accustomed was I to have her around me that now that she wasn't there, her absence got bigger and I couldn't take the phone to listen to her. I sighed... Today would be eternal, but she needed to rest. I hoped she was doing it, but I knew that wasn't the case. Ha Neul was something like a hurricane.

-Hannie, do you have...? -Ken was silent for a moment-. I forgot she's not here -Apparently, I wasn't the only one who missed her. I think today was the time when we became more aware that Ha Neul was a great part of the team and that it was nice to have someone always watching over you with a smile on the face. In addition to always having what you need before even saying it. Surely, whatever Ken was going to ask for she would have it in her hand.

The fansign of today made us very excited. We were promoting the new album, so today we had to be with the Starlights. We were always filled with emotion to meet them. The afternoon was spent in dialogues, photos, interactions and signatures. It was fun, the Starlights could think of unexpected things.

-Hi -I heard a voice so familiar that I swore I had imagined it. I looked up immediately to find those catlike and unique eyes I could see-. At last, I meet you! I've been Starlight for a long time, in fact, I've traveled to meet you all -Ha Neul was there, not as part of the staff but as Starlight. She had a jacket that said VIXX with our logo that I don't know why it took me by surprise. She did what she never did at work, act like a total fangirl-. I can't believe I'm here! You know, I have a blog about you -Her eyes were full of emotion, literally, it seemed the first time she meets us-. I always wanted to tell you this in person: Won Sik, you're doing an excellent job. Your songs are wonderful. I admire the passion with which you work. Keep making songs that touch our hearts. That's what I wanted to say to my idol who always asks if he's doing things right -Those words sounded similar to me, I think I'd seen them somewhere.

Everything was in the background when realizing that she gave up all privileges to stand in line and wait in the cold for us. Why did Ha Neul keep doing this kind of thing? She never ceased to amaze me and every day I liked her more. I reacted when she moved her hand in front of my face to get my attention.

-Are you ok? Do you need something? -She looked at me with her eyes full of alarm, forgetting for a moment that she wasn't working.

-Ah, I'm fine. It's good to see you -Her smile spread to her excitement.

-I say the same thing -She winked at me-. Can you sign this too? It's for my best friend that birthday soon.

-Of course.

-Ah... I almost forgot... They're going to kill me, right? -She looked in her backpack, which carries many accessories from us and took out the CDs of LR and R.EAL1ZE. Both carried autographs, so I arched a confused eyebrow-. It isn't the same to order it with the autograph than to receive it from the artist. I'm sorry -She folded both hands in supplication-. Please? -I laughed. I would give much more if only she asked. But I thought that she wasn't aware of that. I signed their albums, more enthusiastic than I ever was. How long has she been waiting for an opportunity like this? I couldn't even begin to imagine her excitement.

-Have you eaten well? -I asked nonchalantly. She nodded energetically-. All right, don't forget to wrap up when you go out.

-I won't forget it. I can already put my scarf on without it falling off -Boo giggled and I joined her, only we knew what those words meant. She looked at the long line and bit her lips, looking adorable-. Can we get a selca? -I laughed again. Why was she being so shy?

-Are you asking or are you saying? -I scoffed.

-The two -She pulled out her cell phone and immediately took out her photo. The excitement was still in her and it was so much that it seemed to shine-. Thank you! Please, take care of yourself. We, Starlights, care about you -She raised her eyebrows, emphasizing the words. I understood what she meant: I worry about you.

-I will.

Ha Neul went through the other members who looked at her in the same way and tried to hide their joy from seeing her and almost failed in the mission. I saw her smile openly at Ken before reaching into her bag for a bottle of water and a small bag that I thought was one of his favorite snacks. I would dare to bet that that was what he was going to ask before he realized that she wasn't present. We continued with the program, and I didn't lose sight of her. Sitting there was like a dream come true. A person who loved me and supported me at all was one of my dreams. I was very excited to be with her. It was a nice feeling. At the end of the fansign, Ha Neul said goodbye with her hand from where she was and left smiling, with the others. I knew I wouldn't see her when I left, although I wanted to do it... I guess I can't have everything I wanted, in the end just as she says, I'm an idol...