The Book Of Abby

Thanks, I Like To Suffer.

So people must really hate me, so I decided for them to actually like me I'd have to suffer. I started with crying myself to sleep at night in the cold.

I can't necessarily change myself, but I can hate myself more than I did yesterday. Which means I hate myself a whole lot. I also figured that the first part to my suffering plan would be that because nobody checks in on me while I am asleep.

yee.

When I do something bad- I always got a spanking. Since I was a rather horrible kid, I got a lot of those. Since I have grown up I realized I didn't get those as often so someone has to punish me.

So I punish me. 

Thank you, parents you completely ruined me. Sorry future husband.

Let's be lucky I didn't cut yet, I am almost a month clean. Yippie. I am pretty sure it will take a hard time for me to in a way hurt myself minus the blood. I have a belt I can go far with that, I always got spankings with those. 

I should rename this Suffering in Silence.