The Book Of Abby

Is This The Last Ride We'll Take?

I actually wanna not live this life anymore.

Two of my best friends like left me because something the other one did and it's a long story I won't get into that.

I started Monday. I started to starve myself, little by little is what I'm starting with and then soon I'll barely be eating oof.

I haven't cut because I threw my blades away but I know where more are if I need them.

I swear if I get roomed with that child at D.C. I'm hanging myself with a tie I'm bringing. Hopefully Major will show some mercy on me.

I don't deserve to live like this I keep breaking everyone, soon it'll be my own Josh I end up breaking and I don't want that. I'd hurt myself any day if it'd save him.

I need to ease the pain a bit. I think we have some pills in this cabinet... or blades in this drawer or cigarettes on the table and vodka in the freezer for some odd reason.

I hope I even last till D.C. I've been looking forward to it since forever.

No one should worry about me I'll be fine.

I love you all. Take care for me, okay? Josh can control my account and Charlie's (charliethedog1)