The Book Of Abby

protect josh at all fucking costs

let me describe josh's personality type.

he will litteraly say he hates someone (austin) but still act like friends with him for me because this was when austin and i were friends.

he's forgiving, trusting and kind (i love him more than anything in this life i will choose his happiness over mine every time... shit i threw hamilton in here.) i litteraly broke his heart three thousand times before we got together and look at us. wE hAvE bEeN tOgThEr FoR fIvE mOnThS bAsIcAlLy.

     he's trusting because when i asked him not to mention me cutting when i did it last to blake he didn't, when i asked him just anything he respected my wishes. 

     back to when i cut last, he didn't ask if i was okay like everyone else (toxic positivity exists) he asked me "how much are you bleeding?" i wish i still had those texts.

josh is above all respectful. he knows my limits and he knows not to question it. he knows about what blake did to me (like the rest of the internet) and doesn't repeat it.  

he takes me into consideration in most things he does. except camp. i told him to go (then instantly regretted allowing that.) we're basically married, he almost always asks me if he should/n't do something.

i am a slow person. we all know this. my dad says im the most intellegent in the house and im not sure about that. when i am not exactaly understanding what josh is saying, i question him and he rephrases it to where i can understand it. most of the time. 

i have never loved an actual human as much as i love josh. i swear to god (and i never swear to god) im marrying this boy. i don't care that he screams like a lil girl, i don't care that he has weird feet (bigger the better wink) i cant survive without him. 

im so glad that i accidently joined jrotc. or i would have never met the missing peice to my messy puzzle.

if there is one thing you can take from this is take your time with love. you'll meet someone who you think will be that missing peice, but isn't. love is always where you'll least expect it.

ALSO DID I MENTION THAT JOSH WILL LITTERALY DEAL WITH ALL MY SHIT WILLINGLY? HE IS MY DRINK SLAVE (fellow simply nailogical fans will understand this) HE IS MY BEYNNNN. 

but seriously, i love josh a fuck ton and his family (at least him moms side i would be happy to meet his dads side)

i cannot wait to be Mrs. Josh lets do this.

also the kids that follow me on insta, see josh and how fUCKING pure he is.

okay nOw im done.