The Book Of Abby

she calls me daddy

so im in a cOnFlICtEd place right now.

i swore off love because it fucking hurts. and im tired of being lied to from everyone around me (2 guys are upset about that oOPs) but i am tired of being screwed over you know? 

im not gonna say im tired of being used for my body because that has been thrown out the window for m o n t h s now but im just tired of it all.

however, i have this friend who identifies as neither male nor female (they're conflicted) and they also don't know their sexuality (stating i am the reason why they are questioning) and uhhh... sis has fEeLiNgS

i've called them John Lennon and a Croc on several occasions.

which is also making mE question my sexuality.

yes, i am still very scared of coming out and very scared of dating a woman but am i bi(curious)??? pansexual???? 

im c On Fl i c T E d

updates on abby;

-an old friend (aNoThEr) and i were talking about this chick(en) we know and holy damn some tea was spilled. all i will say is travis is my favorite human right now.

-dad has an interview for the fourth job at home depot because of damn corona

-i told will happy birthday on his birthday and i feel accomplished

-i almost had alcohol by accident

-i keep having several crises'

-mom got her inheritance and was gonna make me actually go with her to stores (i cant stand being across the room from her) and she wouldn't give me my part in cash. so i made a list on amazon which is 97 percent tea and one single bookshelf

-karla opened her pool/hot tub for the season and i feel very funky in a bikini holy heck

-i rearranged my whole room and almost stepped in glass and had a breakdown seeing my drill shoes again

-i threw bricks in the backyard and almost broke my back

-went to six flags and rode superman for the first time. 7/10. i was locked in the seat (you start by sitting on the ride and it brings you back so your laying down upside down ??? and there was a lock on all the seats) and dad was able to get out and he walked away saying "see you at home" and i was like "ok" and the guy unlocking me chuckled and he was cute

anyway i am going insane being quarantined its day like 58? im ahead in all my classes so i don't need to do work.

im gonna cry if im in captivity for another day i will literally riot.

lEts stART A R I O T

im going i n s a n e so expect loads of uploads on here im so sorry