The Book Of Abby

Let Me Explain Me

I don't think I really opened up about me to you guys.

I think I am a pretty normal person but of those you poor souls that know me, I can be far from that (sorry torie, travis, blake, and yea...) 

If you ask my friends if I am normal... well I asked them

Torie (@boiItztorie)-

"No one's normal, trust me."

Travis-

"No because your not a idiot female trying to fit in with the popular kids"

Blake-

uh idk what he would say but he's dating me so I think he's cool with it

Yeah, I have great friends.

I have told you many times about my random obsessions that you guys have unfortunately followed for almost a year. From "Impractical Jokers" (team Q) to Green Day to Gordon Ramsay to My Chemical Romance and any other bands.

But one thing every. single. one. of. them. share is that;

THEY SAVED MY LIFE.

When I first moved to the city I am in now I was scared and I got depressed and lonely. I was lost mentally and quite litterally. I won't say I didn't want friends when I moved here but I was NOT ready for what would hit me in my 6th block class in the first semester of 8th grade.

I told you this many times but here goes.

I looked around and observed the new room. I saw some girls in the middle some dudes mixed with the girls and the group that stuck out to me the most was the group of guys in the back left corner. There was one he was talking his name was Kyron (sry if you didn't want to be exposed...) and there was two other guys (Chris and Will) but one scared me the most. Blake.

Anyway, since I didn't talk to anyone I began to read people and when I looked at Blake I knew he was hurt in some form of way and I wanted to help- issue was I don't like talking to people I didn't know. So I decided to observe him. (not stalkish at all). Put teacher decided to put us beside each other in the computers in the library so we learned about each other and Blake told me (and I quote, sorta I don't really remember what he said), "I liked you all through September and I was happy when I found out you liked me but it didn't show I guess."

October 3, 2017 was the day me and Blake started dating and since then I knew he'd be my life problem (this is like a inside joke we have together but we both know it will actually happen I mean no harm) and since then I have been getting better.

Still trip a time or two but I am getting better for him. Only him. (and pawpaw poor man) 

So, Blake. Pawpaw.

I am getting better for you two and I am trying to anyway. 

If you are going through some problems in your life know it will be okay. 

I love every single one of you and I am here for you.

xoabby