The Book Of Abby

It's Getting Bad Again

You read that right. I am getting bad again. I am thinking negitivaly to myself again.

I hate myself. No one can say anything about that, I am fucking ugly I have a death wish everyone morning when I wake up I just don't want to. I am so sorry.

I have been saying sorry alot and Major he gets mad at me bacause we aren't soupposed to be sorry for anything but everything so my fault. I am why everything is the way it is. Why did I win that sperm race?

I'm okay.

I'll be okay.

I have been almost 2 months clean though. yee. I am staying strong for my grandparents, torie (boiiItztorie) and blake. you four better be happy cause it's really hard for me to stay clean.

I mean I do shower.

someone save me.