The Book Of Abby

"have the courage to exist." -dan howell

i freaking love Dan Howell

it's taken me more days than i'd like to admit to try and make this make sense and to make it feel better than it should be. i need to be real with you guys. i can't inspire you guys to become better people when i have such a large lump in my throat.

i have decided to temporarily leave wattpad. i've been on here ever since 2015 so I've spent the better part of the past 5 years on here. none of my beginning books are available to me or the rest of the internet (unless you use archive of our own a wonderful website.) i think with me being 16 and growing up that i should leave for a little bit. clear my head some too since I've had a rough spot lately. 

growing up seems scary but it will all be okay. i am able to say i became great friends with a few of you and one day i hope to be able to hug them as a thank you for what they did for me. i was able to write some of the wildest stories i could have ever wished to make. (some of you may remember my Impratical Jokers days- scary.) i became well known for the My Chemical Romance stories and i hope new fans will read them for the upcoming years even though they will probably be outdated and shitty in 5 years. 

out of all of this i hope some of you will keep the memory of reading this entire book for forever and remember that no matter what- you have to forgive yourself. you have to smile even if it hurts and you have to live for something. i hope all of you will be great people in the coming years- i have no doubt in my mind for it. 

you are all beautiful and strong people. some of you struggled with your sexuality and identity and needed comfort or some of you struggled at home with personal issues. i hope this was a good way to distract you for even a moment. 

i hope each and every one of you find something to make you happy. even if it is an extremely loud replacement hamster (if mabel doesn't fucking sTOP-) 

i grew up a lot from when i started here. i was 11 when i made this account. i remember exactly when i did- i was on my bed trying to find something to read and i'm sure that's how most of you started here too. because you wanted something good to read and that lead most of you to me. 

when all is said and done i don't regret ever joining. even though it caused me so much stress and anxiety i will never regret it. 

now it's time to close the book and call it done. i love all of you so much and thank you for joining me on this 5 year long journey of self discovery, insanity and chaos.

love, 

mama abb

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