POSPHENOUS

phospenous - you'll always have a special place

Listen, I know things are different now, but I hope you're well.

I hope you know that you'll always have a special place in my heart and I know that doesn't mean much to you because your heart is sitting in the corner of my room where you left it.

I understand it's different between us now and I'm the one to blame.

But I think about you every now and then. I picture you smiling, driving your grandfather's convertible that you fixed up with your dad a couple summers ago. And I remember how you refused to let anyone tell you that it was more trouble than it was worth. I remember how determined you were, how you carried yourself with confidence and how you always believed you could fix anything.

And sometimes, I wonder if we could be friends that catch up every once in awhile, no strings attached, no feelings, just friends.

But then reality sets in, and I'm not oblivious to the pain I've caused you.

I know you don't understand why I walked away but you deserve someone who can love you as much as you loved me.

When things got complicated, I know you expected me to stay and work through it with you. But I've never been any good at that-I've always been the type to look for a way out, to run away. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm sorry I couldn't be what you needed but thank you for loving me.

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