First Love

Chpt. 55

|A L Y S S A|

"Where you're headed off to?" Dom asked, walking up behind me as I stood infront of my vanity checking out my winter gear.

"Vick and Junior invited me out for drinks", I replied, putting my ear muffs over my head.

He raised his brow. "In this type of weather? It's over 40 degrees out there."

I looked down at my hands as I slid on my mittens. "The drinks will warm us up."

He crossed his muscular arms over his chest. "You sure do spend alot of time with those two."

I looked straight at him through my vanity. "And I will continue to spend as much time with them as I want because they're my family."

He sighed, putting his palms up in surrender. "You're right lovely, I'm sorry." He sat on the bed, looking at me through the mirror as I brushed my hair. "I don't have any problem at all with you spending time with them---I'll never have a problem with such a thing--- it's just that we hadn't been spending too much time together, and whenever I suggest it, you always already have plans with Vick and Junior....we both live very busy lives with school, work, meetings and everything else, but it seems as though whenever we both have free time, you rather spend it with anybody but me. I'm just alittle upset about that, that's all."

"We spent time together a few days ago." I sprayed some Givenchy fragrance on my skin.

"And that was it for you?" He looked at me as if he couldn't believe what he just heard. "Alyssa a few days ago is nothing to me, I want to be near you a much as I can, especially since we have such busy schedules...I just don't understand baby, you use to love spending time together, now it's like the last thing you want to do."

"It's not the last thing I want to do, it's just that we're always glued together at the hip. We don't have to be together 24/7", I said, irritated. "And atlease my cousins know my favorite color."

"So this is what this is about? Me knowing your favorite color is more important than the feelings I have for you?"

"Forget it Dom."

"No, I won't forget it because obviously this is bothering you and affecting our relationship...so let's talk about it."

"I don't want to." I left my vanity, grabbed my purse off of my door knob and turned off my lights---darkening my bedroom---with Dom still sitting on my bed.

He sighed, getting up and following me out of the room.

When we stepped into the hall way, he took my hand and turned me around, looking me in my eyes. "Alyssa, I apologize for not knowing those things...I didn't think they mattered but it matters to you so I'll get it right next time okay?" He came closer to me. "I want to fix it, that's all..can we please finish this conversation tomorrow?"

"I guess we can", I said, looking into his brown eyes.

He gave me a smile of hope and pulled me into a warm hug. "Thank you...I know I hadn't been the best man to you lately, but I'm trying."

I closed my eyes as I relaxed in his arms, thinking about our relationship and what it meant to the both of us at this point. I was unsure about so many things...about my feelings for him, about my place in this relationship, about whether I was right for him, about whether he was right for me. Al though I wasn't certain about alotta things regarding our relationship, I was for sure certain about his love for me but before I could return that same love back I needed to resolve unfinished business with a man who had my love first.

Dom stood in the middle of the dining area as I flicked off the lights in all of the rooms and shut down the blinds in the kitchen. Once I felt the house was secure enough, we went out the door and he walked me to my car like the gentleman I've always known him to be.