[[[all of your flaws]]] [[[part i]]]

73.

My mind was racing. I sat on the end of our bed and cried. I'd spent the entire day going over and over excuses and explanations. And each one had led me to what I feared the most; I'd fallen right back into another relationship where I had no control. Whether or not he'd done it intentionally, even if his motive was for the best, he knew exactly what life I'd come from. How I didn't want to be forced into anything. And by his deception of hiding letters and probably ignoring phonecalls too, he'd done just that.

I heard the doorbell ring a little later and the sound of voices downstairs. I was happy that he'd respected me enough to leave me alone. It gave me time to think. I didn't want to walk away from our week long marriage. I loved him to the moon and back. But this...it was too much to just ignore. If I stayed, I would never be free. I couldn't be free with anyone. There would always be someone out there thinking they knew what was best for me. And only I could take hold of the reigns and sort my mess of a life out.