Chasing Stars: part of the Chasing Forever series: Book 3

Chatper 52 Why?

Kendra's P.O.V.

i walked down stairs and saw Jenna sitting on the couch watching T.V. i sat down beside her. it was silent for a while until i let out a huge sighed.

"Soooo" Jenna lengthened her "so" making it sound like we've been together all this time and we had nothing left to talk about.

i turned my body to face her; tucking me feet under me as i did so. "why did you leave?"

the question had been growing inside of me all day and it was killing me; taking over! it was all i was thinking about!

Jenna sighed "i was so mad at Louis because of the gambling and all i wanted to do was kill him but at the same time there was this joy inside me because of River...that just made me more mad...publicity and marriage and been a mother and the bills...it just got to much for me...i'm sorry" tears were forming in both our eyes. "how can i not forgive you?" I said as a tear leaked out of my eye. we comforted each other in a hug. I cried even harder. "ssshhh....i'm not going anywhere....i'm right here" she hushed me, rubbing circles on my back. "I missed you some much" i cried "i know" she cried "but i'm here now"

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Jenna's P.O.V.

i laid in bed, staring up at the ceiling; thinking

I was so consumed in my own greed and needs, i left everyone high and dry.with my kids, my husband and the worries of where i might be. it's funny because i ran away to get away from the publicity and make up all those lost years of my youth but instead...i might have ruined my daughters.