Chasing Stars: part of the Chasing Forever series: Book 3

Chapter 61 Oner prefect Christmas

Jenna's P.O.V.

"who's this?!" Louis asked releasing me from our fifth hug! "oh! right! sweetie come here!" I called River over. She ran to me and i wrapped my arms around her shoulders from behind and placed my hands on her chest. "this is River...my daughter!" i smiled brightly, preparing myself for an even bigger smile to appear on Louis face but instead his smile faded

"y-your...d-daughter?" he stuttered almost hurt "No! i worded that wrong!" i yelled "you...you..." he stuttered before i could finish my statement. tears were forming in his eyes. "h-how...." He continued "No! Louis listen to me" a tear rolling down Louis cheek cut me off.

his eyes cut into me; like he could see my soul, making me feel guilty. "Louis" i said quietly when he didn't look away. his pain was almost unbearable

This is what i put him through everyday i was gone.

Then i snapped out of my thoughts.

"No! it's not what it looks like!-No! it's not what you think it is!" i corrected myself. "then what is it?!" Louis yelled as more tears flowed down his face. "i just" i sighed and took a moment to slow myself down and not get angry with him.

Jenna. calm down. don't ruin Christmas already. Thats Harry's job. you don't want to steel it now do you?

I smirked at my little remark. but my smile quickly faded when i looked up and saw Louis sopping cheeks and red, teary eyes.

"I just said that wrong" i explained quietly "so...how did you mean to say it then?" Louis asked, his childish curiosity shining through his sad eyes.

a smile grew on my face and i let my love for my daughter and husband shine through my eyes. "this is River...our daughter!" i smiled.

at first question cover Louis face but after a moment or two, realization hit him and a smile spread from ear to ear "our daughter?!" he chirped happily as if repeating it to himself to make sure it was true. i nodded telling him it was true (weather he was asking me or not) he bent down to River's level.

I didn't pay attention to what he said to her or what happened after that. For the rest of the evening, until it was time for super i was in my own little, happy world.

"Jenna!" i heard someone yell.

My head shot up and i looked round the room. It was still Christmas Eve! we were all sitting in Kendra's kitchen at the quite large table. Louis was seated to my left and Michelle to my right. Beside her was Aria sitting at the corner of the table. at the head of the table was Kendra and . on the opposite side of the table was Zayn, Alison and Tiana. at the end of the table was Harry. All the kids we sat in the livingroom.

"Jenna!" someone yelled again "present!" I yelled loudly. everyone bursted out with laughter and i could feel my cheeks getting warmer with embarrassment.

"Ok! shall we say a prayer before we start eating?" Kendra suggested as the laughter died down. we said a prayer and then began eating.

it was delicious! best meal i've had in years! ok bad thing to say...never mind!

Any way...

After we all finished eating Kendra, Michelle and Tiana washed and dried to dishes while Alison, Aria and I caught up with the Louis.

I never learned to love someone (other than Louis and my kids) so quickly before! those two girls were just amazing in every way. to talk to them you'd never guess they were Emma's age! then again...you'd never guess Emma was Emma's age.

Any way...the point is i got along with Alison and Aria.

When they were done dishes we opened up presents...my favourite part for Christmas. Not because i got things, because i get to give other people things!

But i do enjoy seeing what other people think id like! and this year i made it really simple for everyone! the only thing on the Christmas list this year was...my family together spending one prefect Christmas. and thats exactly what i got!