Chasing Stars: part of the Chasing Forever series: Book 3

Chapter 54 Visions

Michelle's P.O.V.

"LILLY! WAKE UP SWEETIE! FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!" i yelled from the bottom of the stairs.

By the time i reached the kitchen door Lilly was running down the stairs, her PJ's on and her book bag dragging behind her. she dropped her bag by the door and ran passed me into the kitchen.

i laughed and walked over to the counter. i poured her a bowl of cereal and sat next to her at the table with my cup of coffee. "you'r exited?" i smiled. Lilly just nodded and stuffed a spoon full of fruit loops in her mouth. i laughed some more.

Then i heard Melody crying from above us. i looked up at the ceiling and smiled "why are you smiling?!" Lilly asked confused. i looked at her still smiling "because i happy" i said happily. Lilly still looked confused at why i would be happy about Mel crying. i just stood up, laughing and walked out of the kitchen.

When i reached the girls room and saw my two month old baby girl. "hi sweetie" i smiled picking her up. her already blue eyes glistened with tears of fear that i wouldn't come for her. Her tiny mouth was curled in somewhat of a smile, happy to see me. she tiny head was a tiny bit of blond hair that reflected the lite from the ceiling lamp making it look more yellow that it really was. her tiny hand wrapped around my finger for safety as i rocked her back and forth hushing her. she moaned and grunted as she calmed down. she looked into my eyes as i sung a lullaby to quiet her.

when she was finally calm i closed my eyes and imagined how happy Niall would be if he was in the room with me. but his face quickly flashed into Harry and then back to Niall.

Since my last phone call with Niall my visions have been back! and i hated them!

I gasped and flinched causing Melody to flinch and them start crying with fear. "shhh! everything is ok...your fine" i said soothingly looking into her eyes and tried to put on a reassuring smile but she continued to cry. "shhh! mommies here! your all right" i hushed her. finally she calmed down.

I looked up and to my surprise i saw Niall standing i front of me! He looked hurt yet mad and tears were swelling in his eyes

"Ni! whats wrong?!" I asked worried "how could you?!" he said angrily as tears rolled down he cheek "how could you do this to me?!" he cried still angered "do what?!"i asked confused. then it hit me!

He knows about the "thing"!

I gasped

"I'm taking the girls to London with me!" Niall said calmly yet sternly and tears were still pouring out of my eyes. "what?! No!" i yelled tightening my grip on Melody and turning my back to him "i won't let him take you" i whispered to Mel "You don't know how to take care of them!" he yelled still mad and walking closer to me "I've been taking care of them while you are galavanting in London!" i yelled turning to face him "Galavanting?! no! working my ass off to make money so my kids can eat!" he yelled "while you are sitting on you lazy ass!" he continued to yell "is that what you think?! My friend disappeared! my band split up! i have no job!" i yelled "then get a job!" he yelled back "I'M TRYING THE BEST I CAN!" i screamed and there was a few moments of silence

"for what?!" Niall asked quietly "trying the best you can to keep this away from me?!" he continued. i couldn't say anything so i just stood in silence "i was afraid this would happen" i cried "well it wouldn't if you would have just told me when it happened! not keep it a secret for three fucking years!" he yelled getting louder with every word. more tears poured down my face while his just stopped and complete anger took over.

"YOU TRY BEING IN MY POSITION!" I screamed "You best friend leaves! Your husband leaves! taking care of two kids by yourself and have you husbands best friend kiss you!...you try and tell me you wouldn't have done the same!" i yelled "no! i wouldn't have! because i LOVE YOU!" he screamed the last part "And i don't love you?!" i yelled "Niall i kept it from you because i love you! i knew we would fall apart if i told you!" i said calming down. "i wouldn't be so mad if i heard it from you and not Kendra" he said walking out of the room and down the hall.

Kendra?! THAT BITCH!

I ran across the room and grabbed the phone, Mel still in my arms. finally she picked up "KENDRA YOU BITCH HOW COULD YOU!" I instantly broke down in tears, placing Mel on Lilly's bed as i did so. "Michelle! whats wrong?!" she asked 'worried' "don't act like you don't know! everything is ruined because of you!" i cried "Michelle! what are you talking about?!" Kendra asked confused "you told Niall you bitch! you broke your promise!" i yelled "Michelle! Calm down!" she yelled "I can't! he'a gone! he's not coming back!" i cried "MICHELLE!" Kendra screamed getting annoyed. "i didn't say anything to Niall...where did you hear that from?!" she asked confused and she spoke more calmly "he told me" i said quietly trying not to cry anymore "he phoned you?!" she asked "no! he was here" then it hit me!

I imagined the whole fight.

"He came to Canada?! he was at your house?!....Michelle? Michelle?!" Kendra yelled. i was silent, in shock of what i did. "i'm sorry" was all i said before hanging up the phone.

Then i heard Melody crying. i just looked at her. "mommy" I heard Lilly say. i turned my head to the door and saw her standing in the door way looking worried. "Melody is crying" she said pointing to the baby on her bed. i looked back over to Mel and then realized how hard she was really crying. i picked her up and stood up trying to calm down

"Lilly sweetie finish getting ready" i instructed and she did so.

I looked down at Mel "i'm sorry" i whispered as a single tear rolled down my cheek and onto Melody's yellow onesie.