BTS SMERALDO THE NOTES 1 (Edited & Translated)

Jimin: 15 May Year 22

The Topmost Floor in the City
Part 9

I was about to switch on the nightstand when someone's hand stopped me. It was Hoseok. I sat up in surprise and he put a finger to his lips.

"We all came together. They're waiting outside for us." He reached out his hand.

I still had so many fears. My parents never noticed me. I was nothing to them. People would simply see me as an escapee from the psychiatric ward. If I stay, I'll be much safer. I wasn't sure I'd adjust well out there anyways. There were so many reasons for me to stay.

Hoseok grabbed my hand without hesitating, and pulled me to my feet, giving me a t-shirt.

The hallway was quiet. There were only a few nurses stationed at the desk. They didn't even look our way, busy with the work in front of them. We still walked quietly. When we reached the elevator, it was already waiting on the fifth floor. When the door opened, Namjoon and Seokjin were inside.

We got off once we'd reached the fifth floor and walked down the hallway. Hoseok nudged us all into the lounge onto our left. Jungkook and Taehyung were waiting for us inside, candles lighting up the room. The lounge was eerily dim and quiet now that there weren't so many people around. Mellow light from the streetlamps pooled on the floor.

Yoongi was there. Snacks were laid out on the table by him too. Just when I was about to drink the can of soda I'd opened, a nurse came in. before I could say hello, she spoke: "What are you all doing here?"

"we're having a birthday party," Yoongi explained.

"Are you all our inpatients? I don't think so...?"

I was the only one wearing an inpatient gown...
I squeezed the can in my hand, surprised when the aluminium crumpled under my hold. Hoseok put a hand on my shoulder.

"It's okay," Namjoon whispered.

"Start running when I say so," Jungkook said.

Seokin, who was already by the door, quickly went outside. Hoseok looked at all of us for a second.

"Run, Jimin," he hissed, pushing me forward.

The next thing I knew we were all dashing out of the lounge, leaving spilt soda and snack all over the floor in our wake. Adrenaline pumped through me with all the excitement. As we ran, Taehyung almost fell over his feet.

We made it to the hallway, the nurses running after us. As we neared the end of the hallway, I started to run slower, my heartbeat skyrocketing. It was the same as yesterday. I just couldn't get past that line. Get past that emergency exit. Doubt washed over me. Would I really be okay once I got out of here? Would I be able to survive? Would it be harder out there, on the real world? Would I be more comfortable staying here at the hospital? Would things be easier? Would life be easier?

It's not too late to turn around...
I can stop here...
I could give in to my limits right here, right now...
I could still be a good kid...

My line was only a few steps away now...

Before I could stop, someone shouted: "It's okay, Park Jimin, run!"

That voice pushed me forward. I took one more step...and finally crossed over the line.

After I'd crossed, I felt a change. A change felt like when one was to jump off a cliff onto another. Each step I took over the line grew gradually faster; I felt more energy than I had n years. I felt empowered. I threw off my gown and pulled the white t-shirt over my head.

Once I opened that emergency door, my life would change. The environment will be completely different. I pushed the door open with all the strength I could muster. I will live each day step by step. From now on I would think less and live more.

Every cell of my body collided with the outside air. There was no oppressive sunlight or fierce wind like I had imagined. I felt like crying as my heartbeat flooded my ears. I was finally out.

〔im so sorry for not updating lovelies!〕
ｉ was extremely busy over the past few weeks and
I accidentally deleted this part while working on it,
so I had to redo it from scratch💜〕

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