The Secretary. {Levi x Reader} (Completed)

8. Dad

(Y/N)

I entered the house with Miles behind me. He was very quiet. Like... Very quiet. To the point where I was worried. He took off his shoes and just sat on the couch and turned on the TV. I let out a sigh and went in the small corridor after taking off my shoes. I left Miles's bag in his room, got changed in mine and then went back out in the living room and sat next to him.

I hadn't done anything to upset him and from what Sophia told me he was like this since Liam brought him from school. Unfortunately she couldn't ask why he was like this because she was busy with other kids. As a paediatrician it was expected. I wrapped one arm around him and brought him closer to me.

"Miles? " I nicely asked him. He didn't gave me a reaction. "Baby? " I asked again and still didn't receive a reaction. "Mi-" I lowered my head to look at him only to see him crying.

I froze. I wasn't expecting that. I picked him up and placed him on my lap and hugged him. I wasn't going to ask anything until he calmed down a little.

"Shhh... " I run my fingers through his hair. "Shhhh.. It's okay. " I whispered. After a minute he calmed down and I wiped away his tears. "Why are you crying? " I quietly asked. He didn't answer. "Did something happen at school? " he looked down. But they would have called me if something happened. "You can tell me. "

"Mommy why don't I have a dad? " Miles looked at me with tears in his eyes and mine widen.

I... Sure as hell was not expecting that. He has asked me in the past many times and I gave him an answer but he was never like that... I pulled some hair away from his face.

"Why are you asking this? Did someone say something at school? " he looked down again.

"The-the teacher asked the boys to bring a-a picture with their d-dad and the g-girls with their mom and when I didn't take one they asked why and they made fun of me! " he started crying again and put his face in my chest to hide.

I didn't know he had to take a picture. If I knew I would have given him a picture with Liam to avoid all this drama because he would at least have shown someone. But he didn't tell me. I hugged him tightly as he kept crying and told him stuff to calm him down. I didn't know what to tell him. He knew why he didn't have one, everything there was to know he knew. I didn't know who his dad was or what he even looked like.

There wasn't something else I could tell him to answer his question.

After some time he fell asleep on me and I placed him on the couch and made him comfortable. I went behind the counter to the kitchen and started making dinner. I hated when Miles would cry about his father, especially when the reason was because something happened at the school.

It made me feel even more of a bigger failure as a mother. Something so simple, a father. It didn't even have to be his biological, just a relationship, that's all I needed, someone to be there for him... And me.

But everyone the moment they hear I have a son or they notice that not all of my attention is on them they leave. Sometimes with a simple "I need more attention and you don't care enough." It's not that I don't care... But my priority is my son. And not many people understand that.

I tried being both a father and a mother but with work it's hard to even spend time with him anymore... That's also why he broke so hard today. Other kids have made fun of him for not having a dad in the past but he always found comfort in me. It got so bad sometime that he had to change school. But now I don't spend as much time with him.

I left everything to cook and sat on the kitchen table. I couldn't possibly ask for some time off with the new collection coming up. Plus I haven't been working long there. I had so many things to do, arrange meetings, go to places, talk with the banks, the stores, the payments for everyone that doesn't have a permanent contract with the company.