The World We Belong To

chapter 13

Susie's POV

"The closer I get to people, the further away they go from me"

I was  8 years old when I heard that my mom passed away. I never got to say goodbye to her. I didn't even take a last look at her. After that all my life was about losing things that I love, and that never really hurt me much because I know everything we love or everyone we love will leave us one day. so I never let anything effect me too much, I started loving things less so that I wouldn't feel bad when it's gone.

But today, I don't even know what I lost but I feel hurt. It's been a week since Newt disappeared. He doesn't answer my calls. He just left after the fight.

"Honey" my dad called while I was thinking all this early in the morning laying on my bed. 

"Susie...you're going to be late for school" he called again.

I took a heavy sigh and got up. After I got ready, I went downstairs and dad was actually waiting for me with breakfast in front of him. I took the sandwich and started eating it quickly.

"Can you sit down for a minute?" He asked, I nodded with food full in my mouth.

"What's happening? " he asked. I don't know what exactly he was talking about.

"You are acting down for the last two days,  Is it because of some guy or something?"

One of the problems with my bad is..he is so straightforward, he never hesitate to ask people "what's wrong" no matter what the topic or situation it may be.

"No, I'm fine dad.. I'm okay " I said and quickly finished my sandwich and left...if I stayed any longer in there, I have to pretend like I am okay.

I'm going to school and as always I think he wouldn't show up today as well, this isn't the first time he did something like this, disappearing for days and I don't understand why I act this way every time he leaves without saying anything, why its effecting me so much?

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At first I was scared to look up at his locker cause I know he wouldn't be there and I might get disappointed again but when I did look anyway and he was there, I thought I was being delusional for a second and then he smiled. Huh.

"Newt " I whispered. Then I couldn't help but smile. I was so happy to see him.

"You came!!"

"Hii " he said. Now that I heard his voice I realized how much I missed the sound of his voice.

He apologized for being away and he said that his family is going to move here soon

"Really! That's good" I said.

"Yeah.." he said with a smile. I just nodded and then we walked to class.

I think I over reacted when I saw him, right ? That would make me look like an idiot. I should act normal, so I never looked at his way all through the class even though I wanted to.

And that was hard.

After the class, I grabbed my books and was about to leave when he called me and asked

"Do you have any plans after school..? I want to take you somewhere"

Is he asking me out? What should I tell him? Then I remembered how much he made me wait and disappearing without saying anything and now that he is back he wants to go out with me ? Do I look that easy to him ? No...I wouldn't say yes. Not only because I was mad at him for disappearing but also cause I have some things to sort out first.

"Oh well ah.. I have to go somewhere after school...I am sorry" I said.

"Oh that's okay.." he said stretching his eyebrows together. "may be next time"