🌸The Promise 🌸[18+]

Chapter 53

Day 4-5 Protection

The first thing I am aware of is the pain in my head, it feels like my brain is being stabbed over and over again with a pitchfork, Relentless and agonizing.

The second thing I'm aware of is I can move my arms, as I rub my head to help soothe the ache.

The third thing I realise is that I haven't even opened my eyes, and I'm unsure if I ever want too. I can still see Toby's distraught face under my eyelids and the sickening way he undid his trousers. I can feel where his fingers touched me, permanently scarred onto my body like a burn. I feel dirty and want to wash his touch off my tainted skin, I want to rip my skin off my bones and burn it.
How foolish of me to believe he was good and kind, when he had this evilness inside, just waiting to claw out and ruin me.

How innocent and stupid I have been, to run off in the night with someone I barely know, to put myself in dangers way as I did last night. I will have to live with the consequences of my actions for the rest of my life.

How will Xavier love me now, that I'm not pure?

With a jolt of my heart, I can feel movement beside me. I'm certain I'm still in Toby's bed as the mattress dips and fingers touch my hand.

No..no.. Please Toby, please don't touch me..

Tears sting my eyelids, waiting for their escape as a sob releases from my throat. I know I'm going to have to open my eyes and face him. Face what he's done to me, but how dare he touch my hand, after everything he's done to me. I jerk my hand out of his grasp and take a deep breath of courage.

My eyes flicker open, still heavy and full of tears as I look straight up to a white ceiling, blinking the tears away I inhale turning slowly towards the person next to me. But my breath hitches in my throat because it's not the person I expected to see. Instead of sandy hair, blue eyes and dimples. I'm greeted with dark brown hair, chocolate brown eyes and deep dark stubble coating his chin and top lip.

I can't help but exhale in relief as the familiar eyes look back to me with tender sadness, and love.

Not Toby at all, it's my Xavier.

He found me.

"I'm so sorry Xavier." I cry as my tears blur my vision. "I..I..was so stupid." I sob, the ache in my head rivalling the pain in my chest.

"Shh, my love, it wasn't your fault." His words making me cry even more.

But it was Xavier it was entirely my fault and now I'm ruined.

"How..how..did you find me?" I stammer through the tears as my voice cracks with emotion.

He brings his hand towards my face, wiping the tears gently away. I close my eyes at his gentle touch, savouring his love.

Clearing his throat gently, his face looks so sad and I can see he's fighting back tears of his own.

"Angeles woke me up, she was worried when you didn't come back after meeting....Toby...downstairs." His voice strained as he grits his teeth.

I start to sit up and realise I can finally move all of my limbs. Although my whole body feels like jelly as an internal shake bubbles away, making me feel weak.

"Did you go to him, because you didn't want me anymore?" Xavier asks looking down to the space between us. His adam's apple is bobbing in his throat and his jaw is tense.

I have the urge to pull his chin up and touch his cheek - to look into those beautiful chocolate brown eyes of his and beg for forgiveness. But I can't, not anymore. I'm forever tainted by my mistake, and because of that, I have lost my chance of being Xavier's wife. I've lost the chance of his affection and admiration. I'm a dirty worthless human being.